Unsent messages to JAE

I know you’re not doing okay. I still care about you as a friend. You were there for me and I appreciate everything you did for me. I wish you’d open up to me again. But I never know how you truly feel about me. Am I too late? I’ve been waiting for a while, please be honest and talk to me soon.

I was in love, we were in love, I´m really sorry cause I was in a horrible time and i was so dependent of you. If you could hear what I really feel, if you could don't see me like you do now. I ruined all

i don’t love you anymore. i don’t even know who you are. i don’t think i ever truly did know you. maybe i didn’t deserve to, but i thought you deserved to know all of me. i don’t think you ever opened up when you showed me your mind. i think it was all fake or the surface at most. i think every word you said was bullshit but in that moment i thought u loved me back. i don’t know why you lied i don’t know why you wanted to know me and maybe you didn’t. i wonder what’s safe with you and i wonder what little parts of me are now exposed because i wanted you to know the most. i never knew you but i still did love you. i learned to love the little u showed me but i don’t think those were real either. my perception of you slowly blends into this thing i’ve never met. i don’t think we’ve ever really met

Hey, I know you probably hate me with every inch of your soul, but I just want to relive that one night with you again...

maybe in another lifetime :) i like to think we don’t get hurt in that one, i wish that’s the one we were in

I know things are not doing too well right now, It's been hard for you. Please take your time and come back happy and healthy!!!!!!!!

Don't you know that you are my sunlight? I just wish you know how loved you are and that you one day find your true happiness

I just wish you know how loved you are. I regret not sending you a letter. I thought you wouldn't care. But you did

i know i didn't act that bothered when i broke things off but i resent you for everything you put me through. fuck you.

You are amazing and I wish you could truly know how much I love you. Please stop thinking you're not worth it. You're worth everything to me
-Your best friend

my heart was closed off for years and u made me feel so much. if we don’t work out then ik we were perfect lovers in another lifetime.

I hope one day you realize that you kept throwing me away when I was the only one who wanted to stay .. and when you wonder why I’m so distant now well.. the distance is for the sake of my sanity