Unsent messages to JACE
From: ABC
To: jace
i didnt know you that well at first but then i got to know you, i got to love you and then everything ended. eventually i stopped having feelings but when you messaged me earlier this year, my heart skipped a beat, i was like "not again, please" but feelings came back. it was mutual. and they kinda went away later but came back more recently. i still have feelings for you. its been three fucking years. i wish i didnt but i do. i wish we could start talking again. i miss it. and i miss you. seeing you at school makes me get all nervous, my heart starts racing and even sometimes i've gotten really red. it sucks but i dont hate it, or you. thats what sucks. iloveyou :/
From: ABC
To: jace
why does my heart still ache for you. why do i still want to be with you. why do i still get so nervous around you. why does my heart beat fast around you. why do i get red around you. why do i justwantyoutoholdme,, tell me everythings gonna be okay.
its been fucking three years. please.
From: ABC
To: jace
you broke me more then you will ever know. i lie to myself everyday and say i’m over you and i never will me. I will always love you even though you have moved on. Going through my phone seen all the messages and plans you made for our future broke me. Every time i see you i feel my heart break. I look at photos are start crying. how could you lie to me and not tell me about her the whole year we were together. I love you but i hate you with everything in me
From: ABC
To: jace
you were so toxic for me, but honestly, i still find myself missing you from time to time. i wanna hate you so bad but i cant and it makes me so mad. don't be a dick to your future girlfriends. have a good life.
From: ABC
To: jace
i wish i had never entertained the thought of you liking me, your love became tiresome and boring and i grew colder. i dont know why i went for you even though I didnt like you in the first place. i know i hurt you, i just wish you would just stop trying to justify the ways you hurt me. i hope YOU get the help you so desperately try to keep out of your life because you think youre always right. i hope you see this too.
From: ABC
To: jace
I willingly wasted a lot of time and emotion on you... even though I was seriously grossed out by your white boy dreads ?
From: ABC
To: jace
Everything about you just screams balding 25 yr old working the night shift at a gas station... you were right when you said you thought your life wasn't going anywhere.
From: ABC
To: jace
i fell for you so hard. it’s been months later, and i’m still falling for you. ik you don’t feel the same and it hurts so bad.
From: ABC
To: jace
why did u leave me after all of those memories. i thought u loved me. i will always love u. but im over u now..
From: ABC
To: jace
I loved you so much. You were everything to me. Nobody will ever, ever replace you. I wish you felt the same way, but deep down I know you never will.
From: ABC
To: jace
Sometimes I still think about calling you. About picking up the phone and typing your number on the keypad digit by digit. I know that we never worked. We were like two ticking clocks moving faster and faster until they’re no longer ticking in time. I sometimes wish I could turn back the clocks. But not all the time. Hidden behind the positive memories of you there’s sharp harsh moments like nails sticking out of a piece of wood. Like blood trickling from the ceiling above you in a horror movie. I still think about what I did in hot flashes of embarrassment. The clocks got out of sync. Even now I look at pictures of you with a grin, but if I linger too long on your memory the cracks start to show. Sometimes I start to blame myself for the cracks. But then I remember what she told me that night sitting by the fire. The flames illuminated her face as she spoke telling me about what you did. I wanted to tear down your memory that night. To take away everything good about you that i remembered and shove it deep into those cracks. I catch myself thinking about your smile sometimes but then the scene contorts and I see her face by the fire. Flickering and flickering until my face is red hot again. Not with embarrassment this time, but burning hollow rage I can feel deep in the bottom of my stomach. I wonder if you know that’s why I didn't want to talk to you when you picked up the phone and typed out my number digit by digit. Deep down I wanted to hear your voice. Smooth and comforting reminding me of a person who I trusted with the deepest parts of my life. But I don’t know if you were ever actually that person. I held onto you like a rope in a blizzard and created this image of a friend you never were. When I met you the world was cracking and crumbling under my feet so I took you and built up this perfect person to be there. And for a while you played that role but when you stopped I kept pretending. I know you think of me and what happened sometimes. I do think of you. I wish I could erase your memory from my brain but I don’t know if I would’ve survived the blizzard without you as my rope. But I’m a different person now then I was. I have solid ground under my feet. You were someone I needed , then someone who hurt me, and now you’re someone I want to forget. So I’m erasing your number digit by digit from my memory so I won’t think about picking up the phone to call you ever again. And I think you should do the same.
From: ABC
To: jace
I love the way you hurt me and the way you lie to me. I hate the way I care so much about you still and you never cared.
From: ABC
To: jace
You light up my world. I was in so much darkness before you...but you saved my life and you probably have no idea you even did. I love you so much. You are my soulmate. My support. My best friend.
From: ABC
To: jace
I love you and I’m sorry I have a hard time expressing my emotions sometimes. I hope it ends well for us.
From: ABC
To: jace
It’s all too much for me... why couldn’t you have stayed a little longer??? I miss having something to live for.
From: ABC
To: jace
It’s been so long. You haunt me in my daydreams, and in every waking moment too. Every atom belonging to me as good belongs to you. Life is unbearable without you, but you know that. I wish I could’ve told you there are divine things more beautiful than words can tell. I wish i could’ve convinced you to stay alive. I will forever be in love with you the way I am now. But you know that, too. I hope you’re happier now, you deserve nothing less. The world was cruel to you and I didn’t learn fast enough. I’m sorry. I love you.
From: ABC
To: jace
a year and 3 months ago, I saw you for the first time. it started as a silly crush and I hardly knew you. slowly, I started knowing you. you flirted with me constantly and we had so many moments together that made me fall. you asked me to hang out this summer but I couldn’t go. were you actually thinking about me? you asked me to homecoming but ghosted me for two weeks after we went together. driving with you on the highway with the windows down was the best moment of my entire life. I wanted to tell you how I felt after that night, but you ignored me. why? you finally apologized to me. why? i love you.
From: ABC
To: jace
i love you as much as you loved those chicken nuggets from walmart sweet boy. remember that always
From: ABC
To: jace
i wish i never yelled, i wish things ended better, i wish you happiness with her
From: ABC
To: jace
one of my friends talks the way you did. it tears me apart everytime they open their mouth
From: ABC
To: jace
You’re constantly on my mind. I miss you so much. I wish I had the courage to text you again.
From: ABC
To: jace
We both messed up. But I’ll never forget our friendship. You are my soulmate
From: ABC
To: jace
We’ve been inseparable since middle school, when are you gonna be my husband?
From: ABC
To: jace
With every heart beat i wish I would’ve matured and been better for you
From: ABC
To: jace
Youll always b my first love i wish i could just talk to you one more time again
From: ABC
To: jace
no matter what you say or do, i will always miss you. i still love you man.
From: ABC
To: jace
I will never stop loving you. and i hope we find eachother in a another life
From: ABC
To: jace
Even though you hurt me I will always hope the best path finds you and your smart enough to walk it.
From: ABC
To: jace
Pretty Eyes..
3 years in and you still make me smile like a Cheshire cat.
I ❤️ you ????
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From: ABC
To: jace
You are the worst thing to have happened to me, and you are my favorite experience.
From: ABC
To: jace
Im always here for you, hope you come back and keep your promises i love you
From: ABC
To: jace
I know you moved on. But I still hope everyday you come back. I love you, stinky.
From: ABC
To: jace
I’m missing you again. It happens a lot at night when you don’t sleepover. I love you still
