Unsent messages to ISLA

i see you in my sleep and I don't want to wake up out of it , but i do

I wish that I had a better understanding of what love was, so that maybe we could have had a chance

I miss you. I wish I still knew you.

i’m in love with u but i don’t want to ruin our friendship

Idk if I should tell you

i think we could do it if we tried

Why don’t you love me anymore?

ily so much but i’m scared to admit it.

Im so sorry for what i did.

words can’t explain how much u mean to me and how much i love u

i love you so much

i think i might be in love with you, but i still don’t know how to distinguish between the platonic and romantic. either way, i’m never going to tell you.

Damn, it was a great night but why did it have to end so quickly I wish i couldn't of been with you but I guess some things are better left alone, goodbye

I wish you could see yourself the way I see you - perfect. You are perfect in every way, it infuriates me that you don't know that.

I miss you so much. i know you're watching over me from heaven but i still miss you. i wish we could've gotten one more Christmas or thanksgiving together. i loved you so much and will forever miss you. i know you're in a better place and God brought you up there for a reason but there's still a piece from our family missing. every holiday is going to be different without you there. we will never forget you and when i get up there you will be the first person i look for. your beautiful blue eyes and smile will always be remembered.

dear isla,
i miss you. i want the idea i have of you in my head to become a reality so badly it engulfs me. i still like you.

isla. why are you flirtatious with me? is it your personality? i pray it isn't. why do you go for people you know won't like you in the end. why do you ruin yourself and depress yourself?

isla, i want you to know that i want you. i'm too scared. your boyfriend seems perfect for you.

you're so out of my league. i just want you to know why you wouldn't like me back. is it social status? is it peer pressure? these are my thoughts. i'm too afraid to ask you, though.

i'm getting personal now.

i miss you already. and i want my idea of us to become real. i want the dreams of holding you and going on dates to be real because i know you would be better suited with me than anyone else.

i keep coming back to you. i've liked other people and yet i keep coming back to you. at this point it must be a sign. i don't understand. is the universe trying to tell me something?

you must like it too. you aren't like the way you are with me with any other boy except your boyfriend. it annoys me. he annoys me. and i don't like it. i'm not obsessed - although it may seem that way - i'm an over thinker and i always have been. and over thinking + this situation don't fit well with each other.

i would be so full with you, honestly. it's ridiculous how much i'm thinking about this now.

my message is probably unlike anyone else's on this site because it's to a crush and not an ex or an old friend. i'm hoping for the future.

i really hope we can be together, because you mean so much to me already. and i desperately manifest that you ignore your social aspect, it does you much harm.

i really am falling for you.

lots of love, me

i havent known u for long. but if there’s one thing that i do know, it’s that i am platonically in love with u and i hope u are well