You. You were the first guy i ever liked and maybe even the first guy i actually loved. You made me think that maybe not all guys are mean and that mahbe i dont deserve to be treated like trash. You never talked about my body. You made fun of my stupid actions but never my looks. You actually respected me. That was probablt the reason why i though you may have liked me and my friends pushed me to confess. When you rehected me i didnt feel sad. I just accepted it. But when we drifted away thats what hit me. I loved hanging out with you. I couldnt stop smiling when you walked into class. When i sae you i always knew that its gonna be a good day. You made my days brighter. Our stupid shenanigans. God i miss those days. I miss you. Not as a cruah anymore but as a friend. Thank you for those times. Thank you for all those laughs. Thank you for treating me with respect. Thank you for everything. I hope the next person you date treats you well because you deserve it.

Listen the first thing i wrote was me forgetting how we fell apart. I forgot the day i lost complete trust in you and myself. I was so confused and frustrated and angry and distraught. The day when someone other than my friends found out about us. At first i got angry at you and what a fucking scum you are. Then i was angry at the guy because why would he bring shit up? Ive never been able to look at him normally or at all since then. Thank god i didnt break down on the spot. Then i though what if he overheard? What if my loud mouth said some shit and he connected the dots? Yet i never said your name. Both of your friends are just assholes. Why are you friends with them? What did i do to not be respected by them? Those are the type of guys that i usually interact with on a day to day. You were the diamond in the box of rocks. But i guess the three of you may never interact with me again. Now im waiti g for the silent one to come at me. I already hate him just to prepare myself. I cant love him like i did you. You were special. Or i thought you were but i guess nobody can just mind their buisness and forget.

What would I regret more? Saying something or never speaking to you again?