Unsent messages to GRIFFIN

I miss you, and it hurts I may never see you again

Despite it all, I still love you. You still feel like home. You haunt me, I wish you’d call, loml.

you make me so happy. we’re going on a date td, i’m pretty sure you’re asking me to be your gf

Did you love her? Have you already forgotten our life? Do you miss her more than me?

i really wish you would like me back and not her.
i wish we still talked like we used to

Sorry for everything we went through, maybe in another life...

we can’t go back but the love will always be there. my blue boy always

I really miss you. This past summer was one of the best times of my life.

I know we're going to get married, I love you

i really wish i could hate you

i hope this is the last time i write about u here

i don't even know how to feel about you anymore i loved you so much and i'd do anything to fix us.

I can't type everything in this small box about how much I love you, but I do <3

the person you were when we were together will never exist again. i need to understand that

i still love you and probably always will. i wonder if you ever think of us

I love what we created. But sometimes I wish I never met you. I can’t get out now

it feels like i’ll never be free of you and i’m so terrified of that

my heart aches every time i hear your name

it’s halloween soon and the scariest thing is that you’re not here

Sometimes I wish you didn’t freak out on me and end things, I miss and love you so much

YOU wanted ME.

I’m always supporting you from afar. I do truly love you. Thank you for everything.

You’re one of my best friends and I wish you knew how smart and loved you are!

i take pride in knowing we are nothing alike

no matter how much I try to get my mind away from it… it’s been you since I met you

i don’t understand why you did what you did? i loved you

I would fix you if i could

i have so much to say to you but do u even wanna hear it

how am i supposed to get over you

i appreciate all the little ways you show you care

I keep our old memories in a drawer. I know you don't feel that way anymore. It just feels nice knowing you really used to.

I’m sorry I let my insecurities get in the way of our relationship. I promise I’m going to get help. I need to figure out what’s going on with me before I can focus on you

Everyday I’m fighting the urge to text you. I just want to know that you’re okay, but how could you be okay? I already know the answer to my question. It’s not worth it to reach out, but it’s also so worth it. You’re so worth it. I just don’t want to break your heart any more than I already have. I wonder if you’ll ever see these. I love you griffy forever and always.

But I’ll never be able to know if it’s truly you or not because most texts resonate with me. After all, this is the archive for the broken hearted, the lonely lovers, and the ones that got away.

Some days I’ll look up my own name in the archive just to see if you’re thinking about me the same way I’m thinking about you.

It’s been 10 days since we cut all communication, and it hasn’t gotten any easier. I still think about you every single day.

i still can’t figure out why the great love stories almost always end in tragedy... and it hurts that we are a part of that.

i think i’m the only one who isn’t over it. i miss you so so much. i wish i was better at telling you how i feel.

you did everything to convince me you were different and right when I fully trusted and loved you, you showed me what you really were. A part of me died when you broke my heart

hey griff, I know it's almost been 2 years since we broke up there are still times where I wonder how happy we could've been. We only dated for like 7 months but to be honest with you, I haven't felt that happy with someone else. You were the one that I didn't think I had to let go of. Sometimes I wish I can talk to you about what really happened, but then again it's been so long it's like nonsense to talk about it. Anyways, I hope you're happy and I wish you the best. Always.

Every day I want to text you, but I never do. You have to heal and grow without me. I love you always.

I’m so sorry. I miss you more than anything. I just want to talk to you. I need a second chance with you.

I don't understand how it was so easy for you to return to seeing me as nothing more than a stranger.

u dont hv to even respond to this im just praying u see it tho.

i'm so blunt with people sometimes and i don't think about what i say before i say it. i made a huge mistake. just hear me out okay? a huge part of me only said that because i wanted u to get jealous and still care abt my guy friends, if u don't believe me tho:

one of alex's friends texted me and told me some really nice stuff he had said about me and i just thought that some stuff he said was really really nice. i only started to think he was kinda a tiny bit cute the very last time we hung out. even then he didn't even come close to u. i was being a huge hypocrite, but u told me i could hang out with him alone. i told u that u could hang out with your girl friends alone too. it was all just kinda going downhill for us and i built up in my mind that u had feelings for somebody who wasn't me even though that's not true. i also tried to convince myself that because he was nice, into me and popular that i should think he's cute.. just about a week before we met, me and alex were in the loft watching a movie when he looked at me and told me he wanted to date me. u know what i said? i said nothing. he asked what i thought and i told him i wasn't ready for a relationship.. the next week i asked u for your snap and had u over. after we started hanging out together i went so long before seeing him again. i do not want to be with alex. i never wanted to be with alex. i had so many chances to be with him, but i never took any of them because i loved u. hell even before i met u i didn't wanna be with him. i only ever wanted to be with u. i know you're pissed because i think the last thing u said before u blocked me was fuck u, but i don't care. sure it hurt but u could ask me for advice on how to ask out ella and i'd tell u. literally call me every bad name in the book and i'd just be happy to have u in my life. no matter what u do, you're always going to have a piece of my heart. i'm sorry and i hope we can be friends again someday. i'm so sorry. hope u see this and it changes yr mind at least just a little bit

idk if you'll ever even check to see if i wrote u back but in case u do i'm right here. hope u find your special girl. goodnight

it's not even that i'm bawling my eyes out. at first, my eyes would get a little teared up but now not even that happens. but i have this constant knot in my stomach and i can;t stop thinking about u. and believe me i've done everything to get my mind off of u. everything.

i lied that wasn't the last message. it's literally 1 am right now, i did so much today. i saw so many people and went out to eat and shop. it doesn't matter what i spend my day doing because at the end of it all i can think about is u. why didn't u want me the same way i wanted u man

i would've done anything for u man but i guess u just didn't feel the same. if i was in yr position i probably wouldn't have picked me either. alright this is the last message i'm sending u. love u always. goodnight

i told myself i wouldn't write any more of these but i can't help it. i just miss being in a relationship where i'm somebody's everything. i couldn't stand the fact that the feelings i thought we both had for each other was actually one sided. i'm sure u loved me, but i'm positive i loved u a billion times more.

Waking up next to you was everything to me. My empty bed now reminds me of how lonely I am without you.