Unsent messages to ELENA

new color alert wa mfw i am triyng to think of a way to hang out whehre we wont get covid or be cold i am so excited to see u tomorrow it is unreal YOU UARUE SO GORGEOUS wwhee

jsutwanted to say that i have so much love 4 u it is unreal and i just spent the last 15 minutes ignoring my english work to relive the pure joy that was coursing my little kanye height body when i found out that you liked me back after i had admired you for so many months and convinced myself i was a creep for never telling u how i felt but you know what I AM SO GLAD THAT WE ARE TOGETHER and iam really sorry that i dont really express that so much or really directly but every night i go to sleep i cannot help but wish i was in ur arms covid kindof a penis for that. WHEEEEEEthinking about you and smiling hours

you don't realize how uncomfortable i am with other people's touch because i always plastered to your side

i know it isnt meant to be, but i really want you to love me & i hate it that you keep sending me mixed signs

you will never truly know how much i love you until I'm gone. you broke my heart, and yet, i'd let you do it over and over again

hello younge lean.. doer96 youo o are so gorgous lookigna t oyu is like looking into the night sky when there r no lights anywhere andf you cansee the expanse of beauty and think about how lucky u r to be viewing that is how i feel when i see tyou Every day /g literallktjhsgjdf fuck covid i want to snuggle ;_; this little emoticon so funnynshdfhfdhs my face when. i thkn about how we couodl be in the same room rn if covid didnt wah

hii shorddy. idk if u have forgotten about this little website or not bc i sortof did but i just want u to know what a beautiful person you are. you are Radiant and i look forward to the little time we get to be in person together omgomfjgkd im so in love but idk how to express it hmm everytime i get a message from u my day is made

people who are open minded don’t brag about being open minded. and you aren’t and you don’t even realize it

forest green makes me think of you. jesus what the fuck i have liked you for over a year but you have no idea how i feel about you. u make me feel complete but u like someone else. nothing is going to happen between us but a small part of me wishes something did. anyways, i might be in love with u but i want u to be happy with her:/ i love u bro

im not joking when i tell you im not sure if you want to be more than friends. discovered i liked girls cause of you and last year i thought i was finally over you but i cant tell if youre into me too or im just out of my fucking mind.

It's okay if you choose that person, It doesn't bother me. What saddens me is that you have seen how that person took away my will to live.

You broke me and everything I was, you destroyed my entire soul for someone else. But it's in the past now.

why are u so hard to get over? :( it’s christmas eve and all i can think about is you and if you’re doing okay. i miss you. i thought about texting you merry christmas, but i also don’t want to ruin your holiday if you don’t want to hear from me so, merry christmas

I just wana say ily thank u for being my best friend i really dont know wat id do without you , u accpeted me when i came out to u and still supported me so thank u i hope we can stay friends i love u bestie

there were times you made me the happiest i’ve ever been, some of my happiest memories are with you. it’s okay♡. you always said you didn’t get it, how i liked you, but i hope in our time apart you are able to see how truly awesome you are. talk to you soon. thank u for the good times, i won’t ever forget them.

oh yea sorry i thought when u said u will always have love for me that was your answer. i hope we're okay. see you around

oh okay. that's okay i just assumed you were busy with work or didn't want to talk anymore or something. also just incase u thought it was, the yellow one about pushing people away wasn't me. i hope this maybe counts as ending on good terms? maybe see you at a football game next year or something? i had to google what betterment meant lol. i don't know how to answer without saying i l-word you too but i don't think i should say that if we are trying to get over each other. i wish i had said it more out loud though when i could. let me know if u see this one, talk to you later. sorry the last two were so long.

Why do you like me one minute and push me away the next. Why do you have to try help everyone except your best friend

first read the one that starts with "im glad we talked" and then the one that starts with "im sorry just" the others glitched

im sorry just ignore the last two about it cutting me off, it makes it confusing. here's the full message without the website glitch. "i don’t know if you saw my last message, or maybe you thought it ended where it cut off on the cover, but i think i should stop coming on here for a little. it was really nice at first, but i keep coming on here throughout the day in hopes to see something from you and i don’t think i should be doing that, i don’t think its good. i would talk to you forever if i could, if i could go back to the way things used to be i would do that too. but i know that’s not what you want or need. i don’t think its helping either of us for me to keep talking to you right now. if you want to be friends later, i need to lose feelings. i need to learn to stop living in the past and let go of memories and that some things don’t last forever, no matter how much you want them to. have you told your mom? also, it sucks you got rid of spotify but i guess that might be good too. thank you for everything. maybe in another life we can love again. you can go find a church boy of your dreams now (insert the little carrot heart with the 3 that we used sometimes but the website doesn't like it). i miss you. u deserve love just as much as anyone else. don't hesitate to text if u need someone."

okay never mind lol it just hates the heart symbol so it cut me off again. i meant to say "you can go find a church boy of your dreams now (insert heart). i miss you. u deserve love just as much as anyone else. dont hesitate to text if u need someone.

it cut off, but i didn't mean to end it so passive aggressively lol. i meant to say, you can go find a church boy of your dreams now

i don't know if you saw my last message, or maybe you thought it ended where it cut off on the cover, but i think i should stop coming on here for a little. it was really nice at first, but i keep coming on here throughout the day in hopes to see something from you and i don't think i should be doing that, i don't think its good. i would talk to you forever if i could, if i could go back to the way things used to be i would do that too. but i know that's not what you want or need. i don't think its helping either of us for me to keep talking to you right now. if you want to be friends later, i need to lose feelings. i need to learn to stop living in the past and let go of memories and that some things don't last forever, no matter how much you want them to. have you told your mom? also, it sucks you got rid of spotify but i guess that might be good too. thank you for everything. maybe in another life we can love again. you can go find a church boy of your dreams now

Sorry I wasn't an ideal friend or best friend.I just couldn't deal with it.I am bad person to begin with. I guess you can say you did beat the case.

i'm glad we talked, i think it helped. i'll text you if i think im ready to be friends, i just don't know if ill be able to look at you that way for a while. whenever i go outside my house at night i think of you, especially if the stars are out. it's hard to think about having what we had with someone else. im sorry we didnt work out, i really wanted us to. i guess one heartbreak closer to the one meant for us, the universe is weird. but i hope you find the perfect person for you. you deserve all the love in the world. in the mean time you should listen to taylors new album, did you ever get around to listening to pieces by andrew belle? text me if you need anything, it's okay to not always be the strong one. talk to you soon.

ooo we changed colors, you're one of the smartest people i know. the way you think was one of my favorite things about you. yea i get that i just had a thing with you unlike ive ever had with anyone before so its different i guess to think of it changing

lost the relationship tho :/ lost part of u in a way, the romantic side of u if that makes sense because it'll just be platonic from now on.
the class wasn't too bad. this helped a lot closure wise i think, to end on a good note. when the time comes im afraid i won't know how to tell if ive moved on or if i am just telling myself i have so we can go back to talking. has she said anything since the long mean message?

i think u will always be my yellow, even when i move on the song will always make me think of you. you did deserve my love. i think you still do, it's going to take a little for that feeling to go away. sorry for unfollowing you, i wasn't going to because it felt mean but its really hard to move on so im trying to do everything. ive never loved anyone like you so i don't really know how to get through the loss of it quite yet. its hardest a night when we would talk and hangout. but im glad i was a good love. i would've kept the streak but its hard to see your face and move on at the same time. hey i guess that kind of counts as putting myself first yay. wouldn't it be really funny if this wasn't actually us and we were talking to a random person, oh also i just finished my first college course, whenever exciting things happen i always want to text you.

i hope so too. you don't have to answer, but my brain will probably come up with one if u don't. you could've kept the sweatshirt, i probably won't wear it, it smells like you. i miss talking to you and you will always mean something to me, but i hope you find someone who makes you happier. you were a good yellow, but now you get to be somebody else's yellow. 6 years ago today clarke and lexa met :') i wanted to send you the post but i knew i shouldn't

you saved my life mentally, but you never heard me out like I did.I find it kinda funny how I am not the only one u pushed away.How does it feel to only have that one person? You pushed away those who loved you and gave you the best advice? They don't care anymore they are done.Can you actually even let go of me?

i never hated you. i was just kind of hurt and lots of emotions but it's okay, thank u for apologizing it means a lot cause i beat myself up about it a lot in the beginning. sadly i think its for the best too, as much as it sucks. you're not a poo head im sorry she called you that. also it's ok if u text me, grace is super sweet but you don't have to send her

are u sure u were in love with me? ig it doesn't really matter now. i should really stop coming on here.

I miss you so much. You were a really bad person but I miss going out with you and watching movies you were the first person I fell in love with and I feel bad for it

Eres lo mejor que me a pasado y volver contigo es la mejor decisión que e tomado, te quiero muchisimo. TE QUIERO

never got the chance to play it for you, "pieces" by andrew belle. sounds like falling in love. hope you're doing well.

You weren´t my first love but I right now I want to kiss you more than anything in the world, I wish you weren´t straight.

it was a good run. a good first love. i'm sorry my overthinking caused so much. it's hard, but it's time to let go. 831.

You hurt me alot and I am glad you did Because now I know what to not look for in a girl and I thank you for that

you were my first proper friend sorry for messing it up. I know I will never get you back. I will love you forever

i'm sorry. i thought i had gotten better at being less clingy. i'm sorry if i'm too much, if i make you feel trapped.

You can’t even spell my fucking name correctly, never have cared enough. I took care of everything while living with you, including your fucking animals. You literally used to ruin my life daily and not even understand. Think you were the bigger person for the rest of your life, that’s the only way you’ll move on.

you might think you have no reason to live but im sure there is doesn’t mean that u made a little mistake that your life is horrible

its something about you that makes me so drawn to you. everytime that one song comes on i think of you

i wish you wouldn’t pretend you’re too good to be my friend during school. i miss you but i don’t want to be friends with someone who can’t stand to be around me or be associated with me...

im sorry i was such a ass when we were dating. i shouldve been a better person. im so truly sorry and i miss our friendship.

you have a gf now and i have a bf, just wanted to say that those days back then were fun, i still remember occasionally.

Sorry.. It wasn't meant to be, I just want you to not hate me yet not love me . I want you to forget me

I miss you so much but I don't know how to reach you anymore, I don't even know how to speak to you..

I love you. I’ll never stop loving you and I’ll never give up on us. We’re perfect for each other.
-Your Mountain Man