Unsent messages to EAMON

I like you too but I just don’t know how to say it

I don’t think you’ll ever know how much you saved me and keep saving me but maybe one day

If u See this come back to me Even if it’s just to hurt me again
I can’t do this anymore
I miss u

I can't believe I'm never gonna see you again.

I know it will always be her, but I still can’t let you go.

I could never hate you. I’ll always love you. Reach out to me, okay? I miss your brown eyes…

i have zero clue if you like me or not but i’m sick of being in a constant state of confusion

i need to tell you i love you even if you don’t love me

Even though a part of me died with our relationship, I’ll always love you no matter what

I’ve been going through the anger stage of grief lately. But I still love you with gratitude.

I hope one day we can go back to that summer

I often wonder if you kept that painting of us among the cherry blossoms.

I can’t tell if you’re gay or not and it makes my crush on you very confusing

i wish i was like her

tmrw is ur birthday but i can’t bring myself to talk to u. i miss u but i think it’s for the best

i wish i knew what i had to change about myself for u to love me

Think of you everyday. I would have stayed forever

don't forget me. I'll think of you everytime I look at this green jewel on my finger.

I wanna know who you are but I never will. Can't you just fall in love with me?

I look for fragments of you in every guy I talk to, I still want you. Its been months im delusional

Screaming your name in a room full of strangers was a release i didn’t know i needed.

Why couldn't you pick me. I wanted to be with you so much. We could've been so good together.

I know you don't, but I miss what we had.

Maybe we can be in the same country again sometime

“okay” is that all i ever meant to you?

you need to get your crap together and stop relying on girls to fuel your ego. you're not a good person like you think you are. still love you tho

hey you who always uses army green to talk about a boy named eamon. you really need to get over him. you guys obviously have history but i get the feeling he isn't feeling it.... it's time to move on. i know that you'll find so many new people who you'll love. in order to find those people, though, you have to let him go. i'm sorry, dear, but you have to keep moving forward. dedicate a night to just listening to really sad music and thinking about him and crying and reminiscing. it's okay if you go through all 5 stages of grief, i've been there, but you need to get over him. it's for the best. i did it and you can too. i hope you see this. i wish you the best.

love,
your friend

i think you wrote back to me? i'm not sure. i miss talking to you. i miss seeing your notification on my screen. i miss being able to walk past you and smile without it being weird, because we were friends. not anymore. i feel like we're strangers.

How could you ditch me for Sophia on our 6 year anniversary??? WHY SOPHIA.? Of all people? SOPHIA. My ex best friend? How dare you Elephant. You don't even deserve that nickname anymore. goodbye Eamon. I don't even care anymore. You can have Sophia. I hope you're happy. I'll just have to go back to Justin. He's way better than you ANYWAY. also if you actually see this tell her you love her cause you clearly do. more than you ever loved me. lol.

oh and one more thing: i'm hurting rn and u know it. i need someone and for some reason i'm being drawn to you...? i hope u feel it too.

look. it's only been two days and i couldn't help but come back hoping to god that u will see this and understand my feelings. why don't we talk anymore? we see each other almost everyday and still we can't get back to how we were before.

you literally assault girls in the middle of the fucking hallway and i hate you. stop touching my butt asshole.

can you please just tell me how you feel about me already. you treat me how you treated all those girls, you know who i just don't want to name names, who you liked in the past. you act the exact same. if you don't make a move or something soon i'm gonna get bored. but if you do step up don't expect me to be like your ex. how she was. no. and don't treat me the way you treated her. i get that you were nice to her but i think you're forgetting how mean to me you were back then. if you treat me like that it'll bring back bad memories. ask me out to get chik fil a or something, i literally don't care. make a move soon or just do SOMETHING or i will 100% hunt down harry styles and propose to him and live a happy life on the coast of italy with him. mark my words. "is it better to speak or to die? to speak, they said." well if you don't speak i might as well die. you know what. i'm not even attracted to you. i've liked you too long and have been observing you for wayyyy too long. i've picked out so many flaws. i think i'm just seeking validation. and i'm bored. okay so basically just PLEASE talk to me about how you feel so we can sort out what is going on here because i would be down to just be friends but also be down for more. but don't you dare ruin my mental health like you did to your last girl. grill. dog on a grill. i've said too much!!!! goodbye ya little pixie. (if you see this no you don't)

I can and have moved on but it still hurts my heart to know you hate me and don’t want to talk, I still don’t know what I did.

I took our moments for granted. I love you and always will love you but I have to learn to let you go for now

Everyday I hope I get some kind of notification with your name on it. I still have feelings for you for some odd reason. A stupid crush that won’t seem to go away