cowboy clay.. you were always so kind and the funniest person i've ever met. i’ve never connected with someone quite like i did with you. but i still fucking miss you and i don’t know if i’ll ever forget or forgive myself for what i’ve done, i hated when people did to me what i did to you, lied. i just hope, if you ever see this, that you know i’ll always hold our connection dear to my heart, you meant the world to me and i never saw that through the pessimistic view. i needed to lose you though i will admit, i only wish i had a way to get you back. i suppose fate will decide and i pray you come back more that i think you ever will know. :((

The place we had our last memory closed down. It was all I had left of you, I miss you endlessly. Visit me in my dreams soon my love❤️

you asked a girl for nudes while we were a thing then decided to lie about it and date me till april when you got bored. then you came back and broke me all over again using the excuse that i “wasn’t the right girl for you”. ur so fucking emotionally immature. grow up and learn how to deal with your own feelings before you go and toy with other peoples. you loved me and i loved you. but i don’t love you anymore, i miss you but i don’t love you anymore. i wish we were still friends though, we were best friends before all of this and that, that is what hurts me the most. hope you find this one day. and ik you’ll know that it’s for you.

After a year i’m still having trouble getting over you. i know it’s crazy i was just so in love with you. I miss you so much. I sometimes wonder if you think about me but i doubt you do.

i’m with you right now and i love you more than words can explain, but sometimes i feel that you aren’t grateful for me and you don’t care as much as you say you do.

I’ve been thinking about you every single day for past few months. I wake up each day and my soul is just aching, Idk if I loved you but I know I loved how you made me feel. I felt safe, Understood, for the first time in my life I wasn’t alone. Maybe us meeting was one of those things that happen to teach you a lesson, yet even if that’s all it was I REALLY FUCKING MISS YOU. The only thing I want out of this life is to share the feeling of bliss together like we both wanted. If I can’t have you that’s okay, as long as I can share a memory of us being happy.

I hope you stumble across these. Every single message i write is connected. To make it a little easier my first submission was right before this one. The background will always be black, it reminds me of the way you’d always paint your nails. I would paint my black as well because I secretly wanted to match. Anyways I hope the new year treats you right, because you really deserve much more then you realize.

i feel like you are all i want and all that i can't have. you reel me in and then all of a sudden pull back. and i hate you for it. i hate you for not being straight up and telling me how you feel. and if you really dont want anything, then why didnt you tell me that months ago? why did you feel like you should waste my time like this? just be fucking honest with me PLEASE.

i hope that one day you’ll give me a chance to love you the way i know how to but until then this is goodbye

I should’ve tried harder. I miss you.. maybe if I tried harder you would still be here.. I fell for you in february.. and I haven’t gotten up since.

I saw you on someones story, i replayed it over and over. I am trying not to miss you but i just cant help it.

I know my fear was why we never worked but I still hope that you'll text me saying you missed talking to me

I fell in love with the version of you I created and I am happy to say I am no longer in love with that version because it was the only reason I held into you.

fuck u, u hurt me so much so many times. you absolutely shattered my heart, but i still cared about you, more than myself.

Thank you for being such a good friend. You are always there when I need you the most and I am so excited to see where this friendship goes.

You finally came back and I have no idea what to make of it. I'm quite frankly scared to death. You're the guy I want to end up with the one I compare everyone else too and I don't know what you want why you came back and I don't know what to do. What you want me to do to mend things and get back to the way things were because I still would do anything to get back to things were but all I can do now is sit and wait to see what happens and it's driving me insane. I still love you

I broke down my walls for you. Shared things I've never shared with anyone. And I...I don't know why. But I think...I think it was a mistake. I should have never let you in like that, especially when I've never met you. Your thousands of miles away, and I may never meet you, who knows. But I...I can't help but feel stupid for thinking you cared. Thinking you were better than the rest. But maybe...maybe your not. I'm sorry.

I was too young, and you knew that. How could I fault you for it? I wonder if you were in love or were just lonely. It plagues me to think I wasted my best years upset over you.

i love your shoe collection so much u have no idea. we should hang out and hopefully u won't cancel. i really wnna get to know you and talk on things

I wish we didnt become distant. I wish you could hug me one last time. There is still so much i want to tell you. I love you, even if we were not serious at all and even if you didnt love me.

i miss you, but i dont miss how confused you always left me

I took you for granted. I should’ve shown how much I rlly love you I miss you and love you scooter

I loved you and you loved me and I messed it all up. I will never forgive myself. I still love you

Today was the first time I saw you since we broke up. I miss your curly hair. I miss laughing with u

We will never be the same after what you did. You need to learn to love yourself to have happiness

I love you forever sugarplum.

imagine what we could have been

Am i just a nuisance? Were you really trying to get away from me that badly?

I hope you find me in every girl u meet.

i would have loved you for the rest of my life if you let me. i search for you in everyone I meet

I pray when you heal, you’ll come back to me. A piece of you will forever remain in me

I can’t believe you never called.

open your eyes - i’m in love with you!

call me

I’m sorry…

i’d wait if you’d just ask.

I hope you're happy with her, genuinely.
I worry for you . You should call more, I miss my friend

after all this time I’m still not over u. I still cry over u, think abt u all the time

I will always love you

come back to me

I get it but it doesn't make it suck less.

You never cared about me

I think about you still.I hope you’re at least loyal to her since it couldn’t be me.

you made me feel awful about myself

I’m waiting on you… always forever

I really thought you loved me as much as I love you

Imagine what we could have been if you didn’t do that.

How could you do that to someone who loved you with everything they had in them?

I hope and pray everyday that we last. I want nothing more. I love you

I saw her pfp of you and her on fb, I still love you partially, it’s been 4 months almost 5