I promise you i will never ever love someone as much as i love you. I stand by why we had to break up but holy shit no one will ever come close to you. I swear on everything I’m going to marry you we are just too young and immature rn and we both need to grow a little more before we’re ready. You’re my one. Really you are the one and i would bet anything on it.

You’re asleep right now and tomorrow is gonna be the worst fucking day ever so I’ve been trying to send u as many tik toks as i can because i know i won’t be able to after tomorrow and fuck i already miss you

You’re asleep right now and tomorrow is gonna be the worst fucking day ever so I’ve been trying to send u as many tik toks as i can because i know i won’t be able to after tomorrow and fuck i already miss you

I also just needed to get this off my chest but. I don’t want to date anyone except for you-no matter how long that takes and i don’t expect you to want to do the same but I’m dreading the day i see that you follow someone i was worried about or just the day that you move on from me. I’m sure part of you really thinks you loved me more but this shit is so deep for me and i don’t wanna waste my time entertaining someone when i know i want to end up with you.

This is going to be the last I’m going to write to you for a while. I tried to reach out to you bc i didn’t want to leave you confused but you obviously do not wanna hear it so if you ever do look through these this is the reason: the way you cried when we broke up is the same way I’ve cried dozens of times over you. It’s why i couldn’t just forgive and forget. You don’t want to talk to me and i understand why but shit u hurt me so much while we were together and somehow i still want to talk to you. But i get it now, maybe we’ll come back to this one day and maybe we won’t. Maybe you’ll never actually see these messages. Either way i put all of ur stuff in a box. Ik it’s been a lil bit over a week but honestly until u left me on delivered i didn’t even realize how over it was. Part of me really wants to throw it all away or burn it but another part of me wants you to stop hurting me and maybe figure it out in the future. For now I’m sticking to the box and I’m stopping these messages. Otherwise i just get stuck on every little bit of you i find. You are and will always be my first love so thank you.

I hope you’re doing okay. It’s still so weird to wake up and not text you all i do is wonder what you’re up to.

Sometimes I wish you didn’t hurt my feelings sm so i wouldn’t have to dislike myself for dealing with it