Unsent Messages

This is going to be the last I’m going to write to you for a while. I tried to reach out to you bc i didn’t want to leave you confused but you obviously do not wanna hear it so if you ever do look through these this is the reason: the way you cried when we broke up is the same way I’ve cried dozens of times over you. It’s why i couldn’t just forgive and forget. You don’t want to talk to me and i understand why but shit u hurt me so much while we were together and somehow i still want to talk to you. But i get it now, maybe we’ll come back to this one day and maybe we won’t. Maybe you’ll never actually see these messages. Either way i put all of ur stuff in a box. Ik it’s been a lil bit over a week but honestly until u left me on delivered i didn’t even realize how over it was. Part of me really wants to throw it all away or burn it but another part of me wants you to stop hurting me and maybe figure it out in the future. For now I’m sticking to the box and I’m stopping these messages. Otherwise i just get stuck on every little bit of you i find. You are and will always be my first love so thank you.