blue is my favorite color. i'm all alone in a crazy world somewhere i don't want to be. i relapsed and im not doing okay. i can't get help. whats worse is the fact that i know if i were to end it all you would still be the person i write my last letter to. ill give myself more time. it'll be okay one way or another. at least i think it will. god. im tired. i wish life would give me a break.