dear ced,
i miss you. i miss you so so so very much. i want to see you again and i’m trying my best. i miss being your best friend and i’m sorry for freaking out on you. i never meant to ruin our friendship. i swear. but there is something i want to tell you. ced, from the minute i laid eyes on you, i have been so hopelessly in love with you to the point where is makes my head hurt. all i want is you. all i can think about is you. i want you back. and i screwed up big time. i never meant for it to end this way. you are my person. the only person i need. i love you. hopefully you’ll see how much you mean to me.

i wish that i didn’t wait this long. i’m sorry for not being ready earlier. apparently i was wrong for thinking i’m enough

I really want to hug you until I fell asleep right inside your arms, I want to touch your face and touch your neck, I just know that I can't... I love you so much

I know that you are not my first love, but I hope that you will be the last one, I don't really want to spend the rest of my life with someone else.

I wish you would understand what you put me through. I lost myself looking for you. Looking for the person you were when we first met. You used me , made me feel like shit. But at the end of they day if you looked me in the eye and said I will change for you. I would believe you and I would stay. Because that is how our relationship is wired we will be good for a week, fight, break up, then get back together. But now I have to let you go and be better for myself. and I'm proud of that...

tbh i look back at that time and i just get reminded of all the bad things that happened. you really did hurt me and i realized after the fact everything i was too naive to realize. im glad that im in a better place now, but i just dont understand why even a little bit of me is still clinging on when i know i shouldnt. that wasnt a good time in my life and i hope that it doesnt stop me from anything in the future. i do wanna talk to you at times, but i know its bad for me. i still do hope that youre doing well and that you achieve all that you want in life.

you're the only person I've ever mentioned in my prayers

I miss you ced

i miss you too btw

I'll never forget u.... Goodbye, ced.

you're still my comfort person even if we don't talk anymore.

i love loving you even if it hurts

even if things don't work the way I wish it would, I'll still be yours

I know we're still too young for this, but I want to work things out no matter what

my only one, i miss u…so much. i hope u’re missing me too.

I think of you all the time

Sometimes I wish that you didn’t change so much, you were a wonderful person before.