Unsent messages to CAMPBELL

it’s so hard to not love you

I think I love u still. But I shouldn't anymore. I don't think I'll ever be good enough for u anyways.

maybe it was just the attention and validation but something about you made me want to be with you for more than a year but all you did to me was use me and manipulate me. someday i hope you realize i’m way more than what you thought of me.

even though it has been a while, i still miss you. i can't listen to like real people do anymore without getting a little sad

I know we were just kids and we’ve both moved on, but it crushed me to know were never in love with me. Because I was so in love with you.

in case you ever see this. I've forgiven you even though it's taken a while. Thank you for teaching me how to love someone unconditionally.

you have no idea how long i’ve been waiting for you to be replaced and now it’s happened and i couldn’t be more glad about it

When we first met I thought u were one of the nice guys... but then u used me the same way that everyone else has and I will never forgive u for it

I think about what happened to us a lot. And, I know I was the one who messed up. All I can do now is watch you be happy without me anymore. I'm sorry I wasn't able to return the feelings you once had for me. I was never ready back then, but I hope that someone new will show you the love and kindness you deserve. I'm sorry, and I'm sorry.

i know we only dated for a few months, but i’d love to go on another picnic date but i’m too scared to ask, i miss you

You may have gotten closure but I never did, I don’t understand how someone like you could treat someone so badly. Because of you I don’t open up to anyone, I don’t talk with the happiness in my voice anymore, and if I do it’s fake. You screwed me over, you made me a different person. Now my heart is cold

Some days I wish what you did to me would happen to you, but if I had the choice to make that happen I would never make it. I knew you so well, and i know you would never be able to live with the pain and sadness like i have

i doubt you’ll ever see this or know who wrote this but if you do please reach me... it’s been years, and the thought of you still lingers. i hate you but i was just kidding myself, you treated me like shit and left me at my lowest but i still love you, and i forgive you. you’ve moved on and your probably happy now, but god i wish i knew how you did it. i wish i knew how to forget someone so easily like you did, who did so many things together. after a while i finally shut you out of my mind, i was so happy and i was doing great, but the truth is you came back. you came back to me, all the feelings i finally learned to throw away came swarming back to me. now they’re still here and won’t go away, i always wonder how your doing, if you ever think of me. i wonder if you still laugh the way you do, or still hide the smile you were taught since you were a baby, or if your song is still chasing cars. i do miss you terribly, but i know my worth, that’s why i turned you away. maybe if you find this maybe we can work something out, bc god I miss you terribly. i miss the person i thought u were, maybe you are that person you just weren’t ready for someone as strong as me. there are days where i remember how u had me and i hate you for it, then there are days where i love you so much that i have to stop myself from texting you.i think I’ll always love you, it was supposed to be us till the end, we were supposed to be our first for everything. there is still so much to say, your in the past. maybe if you see this we can rebuild, if not then our galaxies were truly never meant to meet.

I love you so much it's stupid. I wish our relationship would progress into something more, but I'm afraid to ruin it. I almost hope you find this and do something to pull us closer together