Unsent Messages

i doubt you’ll ever see this or know who wrote this but if you do please reach me... it’s been years, and the thought of you still lingers. i hate you but i was just kidding myself, you treated me like shit and left me at my lowest but i still love you, and i forgive you. you’ve moved on and your probably happy now, but god i wish i knew how you did it. i wish i knew how to forget someone so easily like you did, who did so many things together. after a while i finally shut you out of my mind, i was so happy and i was doing great, but the truth is you came back. you came back to me, all the feelings i finally learned to throw away came swarming back to me. now they’re still here and won’t go away, i always wonder how your doing, if you ever think of me. i wonder if you still laugh the way you do, or still hide the smile you were taught since you were a baby, or if your song is still chasing cars. i do miss you terribly, but i know my worth, that’s why i turned you away. maybe if you find this maybe we can work something out, bc god I miss you terribly. i miss the person i thought u were, maybe you are that person you just weren’t ready for someone as strong as me. there are days where i remember how u had me and i hate you for it, then there are days where i love you so much that i have to stop myself from texting you.i think I’ll always love you, it was supposed to be us till the end, we were supposed to be our first for everything. there is still so much to say, your in the past. maybe if you see this we can rebuild, if not then our galaxies were truly never meant to meet.