Unsent messages to CAL
From: ABC
To: cal
Date: January 18, 2021, 6:02 am UTC
It's been a bit over six months and I swear the days keep getting longer. On top of that, the world has genuinely stopped for everyone, but specially for me.
From: ABC
To: cal
Date: January 10, 2021, 4:10 pm UTC
when i didn’t see you for 3 months and we saw eachother again...the hug you gave me felt different...it was real
From: ABC
To: cal
Date: January 8, 2021, 3:13 am UTC
I wish you loved me back. I wish you knew ur potential. I wish you hadn't given up on us. we could have been infinite
From: ABC
To: cal
Date: January 1, 2021, 8:06 pm UTC
it's funny, we were only friends but I still see you as my first love & I guess its something to do with how quickly we got close and how quickly it all burnt out. I know we both fucked up with what we had but I just wanted to say I miss you. 2020 was shit enough without losing you and I go through our messages more often than I'd care to admit because it brings me comfort to know that nothing can be worse than me losing you. You were my best friend and I can't believe I threw that all away. I know there's almost no chance you'll see this but I love you, I still do, I probably always will & I truly want the best for you, whether that be with or without me. I hope you get nothing but happiness this year. Thank you for the closure I've got from this. Goodbye
From: ABC
To: cal
Date: December 21, 2020, 1:03 am UTC
This might be selfish, but I hope you don't still hate me for breaking your heart. You are an incredible person and you deserve happiness.
From: ABC
To: cal
Date: December 2, 2020, 6:22 pm UTC
you make it seem worthwhile to stay in this town. thank you for staying when no one else did. I love you.
From: ABC
To: cal
Date: November 20, 2020, 3:33 pm UTC
you really ruined the way i thought love worked, you made me feel more alone with you than i did by myself. you used me for my body, you knew i was venerable. you told me you loved me and you looked forward to having a future with me, youre a fucking lying piece of shit. you would invalidate me saying that i cried too much and how you havent cried in years. you left me for some girl better than me. i wish i never spent those 10 months caring so much about you, because all you did was hurt me. now im with someone who does care about me.
From: ABC
To: cal
Date: November 19, 2020, 9:25 pm UTC
you were always there for me and i left. i’d tell you i miss you but i don’t deserve you. this can’t be the end of our story can it?
From: ABC
To: cal
Date: November 18, 2020, 2:58 am UTC
I miss how close we were. It hurts to see you fall for people who don't understand you(specially my bff). I wish you could talk to me the way you used to. We are still friends but I know for a fact we both still have small feelings for each other still.
From: ABC
To: cal
Date: October 3, 2020, 3:28 am UTC
you were my first love. it was such a long time ago but i still think about it sometimes. you will never realize how much u really hurt me.
