when will this be over? after knowing that you've been with her and been talking again to her, all the feelings and anxiety i worked so hard to be able to let go even just a little of it,,,they're all coming back:)))

you don't know what i am and what i have gone through just to keep you here with me. i never told you about all the criticisms and all the punishment i have to take just to keep you here with me. hope u appreciate all those silent sacrifices:)

I have realized so much from the days we're not talking to each other. I guess I'd be fine alone, I'd be fine if you choose her. I will let you be happy ofcourse. I am doing all of this for you. I want you, yes. But the guilt will eat me up if I won't ever see you happy again. Just know that I love you so much. Take all the time to think. Once you have a concrete descision, let me know. But do not tell me that descision in less than 2 weeks. I'll wait for you. I love you baby, always.

i miss the old times. how i wish we could go back to the days where there was only "you and i" and nothing more...

i want to know the secrets you've been keeping to me. i have lots of things to ask but i rather not. i hope, just i hope, that things could go better this point onwards. please let me in again. i want to know things too. don't leave me hanging.