Unsent messages to CAL
From: ABC
To: cal
when i didn’t see you for 3 months and we saw eachother again...the hug you gave me felt different...it was real
From: ABC
To: cal
it's funny, we were only friends but I still see you as my first love & I guess its something to do with how quickly we got close and how quickly it all burnt out. I know we both fucked up with what we had but I just wanted to say I miss you. 2020 was shit enough without losing you and I go through our messages more often than I'd care to admit because it brings me comfort to know that nothing can be worse than me losing you. You were my best friend and I can't believe I threw that all away. I know there's almost no chance you'll see this but I love you, I still do, I probably always will & I truly want the best for you, whether that be with or without me. I hope you get nothing but happiness this year. Thank you for the closure I've got from this. Goodbye
From: ABC
To: cal
you were my first love. it was such a long time ago but i still think about it sometimes. you will never realize how much u really hurt me.
From: ABC
To: cal
you were always there for me and i left. i’d tell you i miss you but i don’t deserve you. this can’t be the end of our story can it?
From: ABC
To: cal
you really ruined the way i thought love worked, you made me feel more alone with you than i did by myself. you used me for my body, you knew i was venerable. you told me you loved me and you looked forward to having a future with me, youre a fucking lying piece of shit. you would invalidate me saying that i cried too much and how you havent cried in years. you left me for some girl better than me. i wish i never spent those 10 months caring so much about you, because all you did was hurt me. now im with someone who does care about me.
From: ABC
To: cal
This might be selfish, but I hope you don't still hate me for breaking your heart. You are an incredible person and you deserve happiness.
From: ABC
To: cal
you make it seem worthwhile to stay in this town. thank you for staying when no one else did. I love you.
From: ABC
To: cal
I wish you loved me back. I wish you knew ur potential. I wish you hadn't given up on us. we could have been infinite
From: ABC
To: cal
It's been a bit over six months and I swear the days keep getting longer. On top of that, the world has genuinely stopped for everyone, but specially for me.
From: ABC
To: cal
I miss how close we were. It hurts to see you fall for people who don't understand you(specially my bff). I wish you could talk to me the way you used to. We are still friends but I know for a fact we both still have small feelings for each other still.
From: ABC
To: cal
I cant stop thinking about you, and I don’t think I ever will. You confuse me but I still love you.
From: ABC
To: cal
Everyday hurts since you've been gone. I miss the farmers market w you. you were the one.
From: ABC
To: cal
under different circumstances, we could have been great rivals… or perhaps even friends
From: ABC
To: cal
I still have the shark tooth I got you… I hate the reminder of you.
From: ABC
To: cal
that night in december never leaves my mind. i wish i had told you how i felt before it was too late
From: ABC
To: cal
I still wonder what we could've been if I gave u a chance. You treated me so well. Im sorry.
From: ABC
To: cal
I failed us. I don't want you to wait for me, sorry I'm not brave enough. I will always love you tho
From: ABC
To: cal
thank you for the last 2 years. I wish more than anything that we could’ve worked out.
From: ABC
To: cal
i still love you , my arms are always open if you want to come back to me . if not , that’s okay
From: ABC
To: cal
I had a dream about you last night?? Crazy cause I don’t know you anymore, why were you there?
From: ABC
To: cal
i just wonder if you ever think about me. ever read back our old messages
From: ABC
To: cal
You are the loveliest, kindest person and I'm like platonically in love with you bro
From: ABC
To: cal
I really think
I love you. I don’t think you feel the same way about me though…
From: ABC
To: cal
you told me to find peace. i don't know how. your numbers unblocked. i'm here, always.
From: ABC
To: cal
i had a dream that we made up and became friends again. it felt so real
From: ABC
To: cal
Thank you for being the only one for me. I’m so happy to know and understand you
From: ABC
To: cal
somebody new will comfort u, like u want me to. somebody new will comfort me, like u never do.
From: ABC
To: cal
youre hurting me and i wish you could see. i just want your love one more time.
From: ABC
To: cal
I'm sorry I failed us. I'm getting better. I miss you angel :(
From: ABC
To: cal
i kind of realize now that what i felt for you might not have been love. i don’t miss you anymore.
From: ABC
To: cal
I’m sorry for cutting you off. I never rlly wanted to. Ur still one of my best mates in my heart :’)
From: ABC
To: cal
i love you so so so much and i hope you realize just how much you mean to me
From: ABC
To: cal
you cheated. we had such a good thing. why didn’t you try. you ruin everything
