Unsent messages to AYMAN

You were the first person who made me feel love from doubt to slowly falling in love. ilysm

I’m sorry to have made you hate me so much. You will always have a place in my heart.

Come back! Even as a shadow even as a dream. Come back even if it is only to leave me again.

i miss you so much that its starting to hurt. i hope you're so much happier without me.

I never forgot you , i really miss you
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I love you so much

I hope you are happy in Venice.I'm sorry.I wish you all the best.I wish we could've stayed in touch.

It’s been a year. Are you happy? I hope you are :) Maybe in another universe, us?

You are the most funniest person i know

it’s been more than five years and i know you’ll never look at me the way i do

Im sorry for being mean to you. Your feelings should've never be treated like that.

I liked you. Still do I think

ilysm stink

I love you harder than anyone has loved anything.

I wish we could lasted forever
Growing up with you would have been a priviledge

i wish i could forgive u

i hate how i love you, you have hurt me and broke me so many times but i still choose to love you.

wish things were different. i miss you, even after the years passed. i’m sorry, i know you loved me

whyd u promise to stay and get my hopes up like that?maybe in another life, i js cant wait anymore

I loved having you in my apartment. It felt like everything we talked about was finally coming true.

I don’t want to either

Ayman, I'm sorry. I should have told you and waited for your response. I love you

hey, It's been a year since we broke up. But I'm all good now

tell me you love me one more time

I love you but I’m scared of you.

you are the worst brother ever i tried fixing our relationship but ou never put effort into fixing it. fuck you, you genuinely ruined my life forever. i cried my self to sleep so many times because of what you did

ahhh i love you so so so so much. glad that we've been dating ever since august :) you mean to so much to me.

you're still messaging me and im leaving you on seen. i hope ur only still going on and msging me because you care about me. fuck i miss you so much ayman. i want us to be together again but its weird i dont have feelings for you rn idek. cos i still keep checking my phone looking for notifications from u and its been like that for the last few days. why did we have to break up man.

we’re finally best friends again it’s what i wanted, i still want us to be together but idk it’s okay i mean. we called last night for the first time in ages and it was so funny i missed that. love u

idk what happened but last night we were talking and idk it felt like the way we use to. i miss you so much you dont understand.
im angry i fell asleep before we could call, i feel you catching feelings again. fuck i wanna skip all of this and have you come back to me finally.

ik you wont even see this but idk man if i love you or not we been broken up for 3 months ik i miss u but like you think im catching feelings again and im stressing out cos i dont know anymore, i thought im over you and i still think that but its my soft spot thats fucking it up. ik i love you deep down but idk in what way. i miss you being my bestfriend and its sad we broke up cos i really loved you, i never fell inlove w someone. you were the first person i really and truly loved so much. ayman baby i miss u so much. one day we will be back together and im hoping for that because not only were u my boyfriend, you were also my bestfriend and my rock and my yellow. you brought so much happiness into my life you dont understand. i wish you could read this and not think im crazy but i hope you know that im missing you every second. im missing ur kisses and ur cuddles and comfort. ik we're made for eachother. only can hope for god to bring us back together i love u baby.

i miss u alot. our friendship alone was wayy to important. i want my best friend back like he was. i miss you thats it.

I fucking love you, so much. Every time I think of you my heart hurts because I haven't seen you in so long and because I know I'm never going to get over you. It's practically impossible for me to be over you and I know you'll never love me as hard as I love you, but when I think of all our memories together my heart aches, my throat gets clogged up and my eyes get glossy. You were always there for me, you always managed to make me feel like I was enough and you always the only person able to make me laugh even when I didn't want to. You know it's funny because, all of my thoughts become connected to you some how, I swear to God you were made for me, nobody has ever made me feel as worthy, loved and beautiful as you. I fucking miss you and I just hope you can find someone to make you feel as good as you made me feel. I know I'll never be the one to call you mine and that kills me every day, but to whichever girl does end up calling you that is so fucking lucky.

I rly wish I knew what it would take for me to be enough for u. The things I did for u I would've never done for anyone else. I’ve done more for u and love u more than anyone will. Yet u always push me away. You don’t even try. All I ever want is attention and effort but that was too hard. I know I deserve better but yet it’s been months since we spoke and I have thought ab u everyday since

thank you for brightening my days. I never realized how much I appreciated your laugh and the way you made me smile until you weren't in my life to call me every night and talk my ear off about wrestling and what you believed in. I should have treated you better.