it took me two years to finally realize how much ive missed your company. it’s pathetic, isnt it? you were the only one who was able to make me feel important. the only one who made me have feelings for the first time. im so sorry for how i treated you. for driving you away. i thought that you’ve only hurted me, when in reality it was myself. i was so self absorbed back then. we were both young. i miss you, more than you could imagine. you probably wouldnt even believe me when i say that i mean it. i wish i could’ve treated you better. you deserve more. please, just forget about me. i never even deserved you to begin with. im okay with being left behind. we’ve both changed, and it won’t ever be the same again. i want to tell you how grateful i am for how you made me feel appreciated; to thank you for putting up with me over the most dramatic things. there’s so much i want to thank you for, but i’m such a coward. i could never bring myself to admit how much i liked you. it’s embarrassing considering how i’ve treated you. but all i could think of is the weight of how much i want to apologize to you. im so sorry for messing things up, for treating you like a complete stranger. im so sorry for getting angry at you. im so sorry for not being there for you during the times you needed. and now that you’ve moved on, i only lie to myself saying that im glad you’ve found someone else. someone who could be someone i couldn’t be. i just want you to be happy. after all, it was my fault for ending up this lonely. all i could do now is crave for your comfort, and ache for you to convince me that im good enough; breaking through my stubbornness. i’m so selfish for even thinking about it! it only hurts more to have talked to you a couple of days ago. you were my first and my last, and im glad it was you. maybe in another life, it all would’ve worked out. but did you even want me back? i can’t help but question, did you even like me as a friend? i’d be more surprised if you actually did. but im sorry. im so sorry for being the worst. you’re truly an amazing person who deserves the world.

i want to be closer to you. it doesnt have to be much, but ive decided to make up for the time lost. missed out on in fact. this time, ill definitely appreciate you. sorry in advance, but i think ill annoy the fuck out of you. just for giggles. not gonna lie though, i do believe i have already made you feel uncomfortable. this may be a lot to ask for, but could you let me be selfish for once? i promise it wont be for long. once ive found my inner peace, ill let you go. so forgive me. im sorry for being a bother when i just cant help it.

you're still as pretty, as the day I first met you

i am so proud of you

how is it easy for you to move on?

just know that I really liked you.
If you didnt like me back, why would you ask for a relationship.

you haunt me in a bitter-sweet way, i wish you well

You mean so much to me, I love you so much

baby, it’s hurting me bad:(

baby, it’s hurting me so bad…

I'm sorry that I disappointed you.

Hi baby. I wish you could love me again and bring back our sparks together. love u beh

I miss you so much

i love you so much, lovie. today, tomorrow, forever.

I love you Ayen, please I’m sorry for asking to be just friends. I want more