i miss you dearly. i always hear about people finding platonic soulmates, and i genuinely believe you were mine. i miss seeing your eyes scrunch up when you smile that smile which makes you glow, my angel. i miss your laugh, it was so fucking ugly but it was so perfect to me. i miss you doing your lil dance, or when you'd grab my hands and force me to dance with you. i miss laying with you, playing with your hair and drawing lil pictures on your back. its a shame that life happened and you felt the need to do what you did, but i forgive you. i miss you greatly, and i hope you're doing well up there and getting all the guys, i love u my atti

i guess i ruined kiri for you
i guess you ruined kiri for me too
did you know you have the same scar as him?
i realized that today
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I know you didn't like All the Bright Places
the movie kinda sucks
the book is still okay
it just reminds me of cutting out all the bad words and leaving the pretty words left
you're a pretty word
"ethereal" doesn't seem enough anymore
oh well
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Howl's Moving Castle is really good
so is Ponyo
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I'm always scared to watch anime on Hulu because I still have yours.
I mean you haven't said anything which i guess obviously you wouldn't directly but you could always say something to Logan.
Whenever I can see you watching something it's like i forget that you've said things
things that have hurt. i forget about that a lot actually.
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i realized all i want to do is talk about anime with you.
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I realized i won't be able to trust you ever again. no matter how much i want you to acknowledge my presence, i know its better that you don't.
for some reason ever since new years i can't stop thinking about you and everything.
it's actually really draining but i just can't seem to stop.
i miss you.
i almost wrote another song about you and i had to stop myself lmao.
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being left by 3 people you really care about hurts.
and it sucks that i still care about you three.
i have no idea why
i just do
i want you to get your shit together too
and i feel useless
i was just dropped in the mud and then had a blizzard of things told to me and ever since, i don't know what to believe or how to feel.
and i think apart of me just wants you to tell me how to feel.
cause i really don't know. and that sucks.
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okay that enough paragraphs.
i told you i could write whole books to you.
guess you didn't believe me
also
"Hug all Your Friends" by Cavetown
its us i guess
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-someone with complicated feelings-
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waking up to your voice on the phone in the morning was the only thing keeping me going. why did i mess everything up.

waking up to your voice on the phone in the morning was the only thing keeping me going. why did i mess everything up.

i will always love you, but not in the same way i once did. i don’t believe in fate but i know i was supposed to meet you. you made me a better person and i am so grateful i met you. i am really very sorry for any pain i caused you. i’m not the best at saying these things but i wanted you to know. maybe if i was older this would have worked. maybe i’ll see you again some day and you can take me to the spot. anyway i love you and i always have.

i miss you atti, i hope you're doing okay honey. if floyd was still here she'd miss you too.

Atticus, you stuck in my mind for too long. I'm glad we got closer these few months anyway.

i still wonder how ur doing in life sometimes, hope it treats u better than u treated me

Why do I still think abt you?

I’m nervous I’ll get attached and end up hurt. This has to potential to break me.

I don't care anymore

you make my day shine so bright every single day, i hope we last forever <33

it takes all my strength to not tell you i'm in love with you. honey, you make me weak.

Well… I wish u would js make a move, I miss the brief time we were “friends” I lwk love you…alot

Hope I meet you in my dreams tonight. :)

you've got this weird hold on me and im falling in love with u

i will never fall in love unless it's you i fall into <3

I wonder if u remember me..

When I look back on our memories, you suddenly start to disappear. Maybe you never existed.

I feel bad for loving you the way I do

I’m sorry, ily

I feel like you hate me but I don’t really know what I did

I’m so sorry just know i will love you forver and i will come back and i wish we could’ve been good

if you see this- i love you. i know we wont last forever but youre the best part of my life rn. ty.

ive liked you for so long but i know you dont think about me like that. you're still my best friend.

I miss you, you’re my bestfriend but i feel so distant

i'll always be here with open arms ready to try again, i hope you know that. i'll always love you ????

i’m sorry i loved you in the ways i wanted to be loved instead of the ways you needed to be loved.

did you know i am very in love with you?

it's my fault, i'm sorry. my first love, i love you like no other. wishing you the best, always. ????

i love how you love me and i love you.

i'm better without you, why does it still hurt:(

please don’t meet someone else and leave me

i love you more than anything, i mean it.

I think I love you but I'm really scared because I don't wanna mess up what we have

Im in love with you, I have been since we were 13. i wish I had told you, I love you Atticus
????????

whyd you have to play with me the way you did?

can we try again.

i really hope you're doing good:(

I'm in love with you and I don't know how to tell you. I think about you everyday. I love you.

in another life, u will always be my soulmate and i will always love u

im sorry

I’m proud of you..,

My heart is yours to keep forever & always

Keep going ! I’m proud of you..

I hope one day you find this and know that I love you so much dear <3 keep rocking this world

I’m really sorry. I wish it could’ve been us pretty boy. But it can’t and you moved on.

Why can’t u help me

I miss u, if u gave me another try i could do so much better

my favorite boy. ilysm. I hope yk I mean it.

you should have said something to me the other night… i miss talking to you