its been a really long time since i've spoken to you, but for some reason i still think about you from time to time. we were so young when we got together. in all honesty i'm so glad that you were the first person i ever fell in love with. the love that we had was so confusing and scary for me, especially considering the age we were at the time haha. we both had things holding us back from completely submitting to each other, and it constantly felt like a tug and pull relationship, but on both ends. i was terrified when i figured out i had fallen in love with you. i was so young, i was terrified of what people would think if they saw us together since we were both girls, i was a coward. i neglected you so many times but you kept coming back...you were always so patient with me. you always waited, constantly waiting over and over for me to be ready. but that day when you kissed me after school, out in the open, in front of everyone, the way you held my cheek, the way our lips touched, the way you bent your head down so i didnt have to step on my tip toes to reach you, that was the only moment i ever truly felt safe in someone elses arms. no one cared, no one judged us, our love was our love. you meant the world to me. the way you would hold me and hug me while i sat in between your legs. the way you would smell my hair, and let me play with your hair, the way you get mad at people for making fun of me, and the way you looked at me...the way you looked at me was just...you looked at me like you were so proud to call me yours. its been years but i'll never forget the same way you would look at me when we told each other how we loved one another. i see that you're with someone else now, and they're a guy. i honestly believe you guys are absolutely adorable. its so cute seeing you look happy again. i hope he can protect you in the ways i couldn't. i hope he holds you the same way you held me, he smiles at you the same way you smiled at me, he bends down to kiss you the same way you did for me, he holds your hand if youre cold the same way you did for me, he reassures you if youre confused as you did for me, and he looks at you with pure admiration and love...the same way you did me. live on with your life in the way you want to. i'll always remember you, but i'll never regret letting you go. seeing you this happy now is all i ever needed.