Uhm well...I'd be lying if I said I knew exactly what was going on but anyways.
I'm hoping I'll be brave enough to text again but idk if you even want me too

Just in case I never speak to you again I just want you to know that I love you and I meant it everytime I said if you ever needed I'd be here

I wanna tell you that I miss you but I'm scared I wont hear it back.
I wanna move on but I'm scared that no one is gonna make me feel the way you did.
I wanna move away from town but I'm scared I'll really miss you.
I want you to be happy but I'm scared you'll be so happy without me.
I wanna let you go but in scared you wont come back.
I wanna love you but I'm scared you wont care.
I wanna delete your number but I'm scared you wont reach out.
I wanna put you in the past but in scared it'll break my heart.
But we're not in the same place and it just isn't our time I can only hope that you meant it every time you said you loved me.

Oww and I'm sorry for making you feel like you constantly had to tell me what you wanted coz I feel like in a way you thought i was pushing you to do something you didn't want and that was not my intention. I just idk I kinda think that's how you felt...

I just remembered that time before we broke up some girl told you something about me and you instantly believed them regardless of what I said.
I was really hurt.

I also just remembered that time you said I was snappy.
Its really sad just how short our relationship was and how many times I've cried because of you.
I really though you loving me meant less tears.

Lol it's not funny but it hurts less when I say lol so Lol remember the day we started dating and we were talking on the phone then you told whoever was next to you that you had a girlfriend you sounded so excited...

Remember that day you took me to my first date while waiting for a car to fetch me you sat in front of me with both my hands in yours and you apologized.
If only.

I just...
I wish you'd actually talk to me I think I'd feel better if you talked about things butb
it's like you're still not comfortable to talk to me :(

I really love you
I just really want you to know that coz idk what's going to happen.
Regardless I'm always here to talk if you need someone to talk to.

You just wrote me the most beautiful thing I've ever read. I'm so in love with you and I hope, God I pray I never lose you.
Now I wish I did when I almost called.
(I probably should've texted you this)

Its 2 am and I can't sleep.
I always tell you you can call me even at 2 am when you need me I'll pick up, Truth is I wish you would I'd love to look at my phone ringing at 2 am and see your name :) hear you tell me about how much you love arsenal or how I'm really confusing and maybe even what I mean to you. I guess I just wish you thought about me as much as I think about you.
Te Amo Bub (I can call you bub right?)

I'm afraid of losing you...
We both still have a lot of growing to do I hope we don't lose each other in the process and if we do I hope you find your way back to me.

The truth is when we broke up I was really hurt...I sent that text with tears rolling down my face knowing that things aren't going to be the same.


I spent months asking myself what I did wrong and why I wasn't good enough and none of my friends really understood you know. I remember in school seeing your friend dressed in something I know you'd wear and my heart sank to the bottom of my feet thinking it was you. But nothing really hurt me more than that moment when my friend showed me a picture of you and her on your friends post...I was in History waiting for Mr M to finish sanitizing hands and I couldn't believe my eyes my heart broke into pieces but that's not it I spent the rest of the day (mind you hist was 1st period) crying in every period luckily I sit at the back mostly and you know the mask helped to hide my tears. My point is I really love you like alot and if that's not how you feel please let me go.
It'll hurt I know it will but I think it's better then what I'll feel if you keep pretending you love me but you don't coz I really want that white house and I want your baby even if its not twins I wont be mad lol.

What I'm trying to say is when I close my eyes and I think about my future you're in it, Am I in yours? :(

I was hoping you'd have got back to me by now. I'm not going to be that girl and keep asking when I'll see you when I already did, I'm sitting at home literally on tik tok, YouTube and binge watching freakin criminal minds all day...You're the one who's BUSY I honestly - Urghh you know what screw you actually for making me feel like this mxm

I want you to stay awake at night staring at the ceiling thinking about a day you just spent with me...

I want you to stay awake at night staring at the ceiling thinking about a day you just spent with me...