you still have this hold on me. i've been holding on for so long hoping that you'll come back to me. i want to be happy again. i want to not stay up at night over analyzing songs on a playlist. i want you, but i also want something more than just this dance we do all the time. i don't want to let you go, but i have to. i have to think about me. i love you, i always will because you were good to me. and who knows, maybe one day in 5 years will do it over again.

i was with my friends and for the first time i didn't imagine what i would be like if you were right next to me.

is there no longer a charm, is it just annoying? i keep acting loud and brash in hopes of garnering you attention, but i think all i'm doing is pushing you away