i feel so stupid and silly for opening up so much and loving so hard, i look back and sometimes question if u were in love, idk. i think i know you loved me, i think i know you cared. your eyes looked like you were in love, other things seemed like you were in love. but sometimes i'm not so sure. i should've waited longer to open up. now you know all these things about me, i went from being head over heels in love with every single thing about you to us not talking anymore. for 5 months there wasn't a day i didn't talk to you. i should wait longer to let people in. i tried so hard for you, even though sometimes we were off and on, which was okay i understand, i still trusted you enough to tell you things in the span of 2 months i have never told anyone before, not even my friends of 12 years. but now it's over. i put so much of my trust into you, but it's okay. i just hope you see how hard i tried to do everything for you. thank you for teaching me i need to wait longer before i let people in. i'm
sorry i just needed to vent. no hard feelings. u probably won't find this.

i’m sorry i feel bad because it might’ve come across wrong. i’m probably just overthinking this a lot because you probably didn’t even find it, please let me know if you did. i didn’t mean to say i felt stupid opening up because now you know all these things i don’t trust you with, that’s not true. i do trust you. i feel silly for opening up because i should’ve waited longer because it brought me a lot closer to you and it would’ve made breaking up easier if you weren’t my home to talk to about hard stuff sometimes. it was nothing against you, just me beating myself for opening up and being vulnerable, i also felt stupid because maybe that was why we ended and if i never wouldn’t opened up maybe it wouldn’t of ended so maybe that’s where the feeling stupid came from, i’m not sure. but i also think it was good i opened up. idk i’m just on an overthinking spiral. but anyways now i’m just ranting. i just didn’t mean for any of that to come off bad it was nothing against you it was just me beating myself up telling myself i should’ve waited longer. i’m sorry if it came across bad, i’m overthinking that you saw it and it hurt you, you probably didn’t see it though but just in case. i’m sorry if it sounded mean at all

it was nothing against you, i was just saying the stuff in the last message and how i was sad i tried so hard and it still ended :( we just aren’t meant to be, at least not right now :( but it’s no ones fault don’t worry i hope you’re doing well