Unsent Messages

i wish i could forget about you. i wish we had never met. i wish i had lost feelings early on and didn’t continue with you. the good memories aren’t even worth it. you caused me more pain than anyone else in my life has. you made me feel so unworthy, so useless, i always felt like i wasn’t enough. you made so many excuses. you know, you weren’t the only one who went to the mental hospital. you cant use that as an excuse whenever someone tries to confront you. don’t bring up the “ive almost killed myself” yeah, i get that you want to be selfish sometimes but it’s not fair when you do it every single fucking time that you fuck up. you are not the only one with mental problems. you are fucking crazy. i hope that in the future i will be able to never associate myself with you. i don’t want to be friends with you, i don’t want to be mutual with you, i don’t want to talk with you ever again. you fucked up my life so bad. i hope you feel guilty for everything you did. i hope that the guilt keeps you up at night. i hope you reach out to me only so i could reject you and tell you how i feel; tell you how i’m never going back and how i never want to talk to you again. i fucking hate that i gave you so many chances. i’m embarrassed honestly. someone like you shouldn’t be able to get that many chances. i wish i had put you in your place earlier on. oh if only you could feel the pain i felt. i know for a fact that you wouldn’t be okay if it was done to you. but, oh, when you do it, it’s fine and it was only because you’re bipolar. got it.