i still stay alive for you. i cant do it for myself. you were the only one who could help me and even though we ended i still stay alive for you because i know you would still be proud of me if you saw how hard im trying. it hurts so bad to lose you because you were the only one who understood, you were the only one who i ever really tried for. i still love you and i will always be there for you no matter what. i meant it when i told you i would drop anything and everything if you really needed my help. i know that we are better off with what we are now but i cant help but miss you. i always wonder if you cried as much as i did over us, if you cared as much as i did. i guess ill never know.

I love you with every being in my body. my soul belongs to you. The ink on my skin will always be for you.

i relish in the idea you can't find the parts where you went wrong. i hope you writhe in grief forever

dear william, you are a fucking cunt bag. why would you ever pretend to like me when you knew i did? its fine now bc im over it. theres someone that isnt a dickhead.

Love you! Thank you so much for being my friend, you make the world a better place. We should get high together again sometime soon

I have decided to stop wondering if you loved me because it was clear that you wanted to hurt me. Otherwise, you wouldn't have let yourself do that to me

So im typing this in under ur nickname because I don't really want you to see it - at least not yet. i wont ever tell you, but it hurt me when u picked him over me, because i am in love with you. not just like infatuation or confusion, but i want to spend the rest of my life with you. were only best friends, but im mesmerized by your laugh and your singing and your smile and what you say and how you truly care about me and my life. i genuinely could imagine spending my whole life with you, and thats hella scary tbh. i care about you so much though more than youll ever know, and if he is what makes you happy, thats all i want. ill be okay. but hey, if he does it again, ill be here thats a promise. you mean the universe to me. i think ill always love you, but maybe one day ill move on. either way, thank you for being here for me. im so fucking lucky to have you.

I really really love you more than anything in the entire world. If I could, I would sweep you away and we could live together in a beautiful cottage, or house, or anything really. I miss you, even though I've never met you in real life. I miss you because I haven't seen you yet. If you ever have to break contact with me, never forget me, I'll be waiting to pick you up when you can.

-Te parece bien si voy contigo?, Porque enserio te extraño demasiado.-
Debiste haber aceptado, así yo no sufriría tu pérdida y estaría sentada junto a ti bajo un bello árbol de cerezo en un lugar del que nadie si existe o es una bella mentira.

this pandemic really made me appreciate life so much more. we really do only live once. i now know who my true friends are. i no longer care about what other people think of me and i can finally say i am proud of myself.

Querida e amada moon, soubestes desde o início que tudo se complicaria apartir do momento em que nos afastarmos,e no momento estou caindo de amores por você.

youll never see this just like you never saw me cry over you. you stole a part of me, please treat it kindly. i know youre still with me but take care of yourself, i love you.

one time i said i dont like people touching me and you reminded me i let you touch me. i wish you could read my eyes, they were yelling to you that its because youre the only one i ever want to touch

You won't ever see this but just know that I love you, and always have. It doesn't change just cus we've been together so long

you told me words that hurt me more than anything ever could and being me, i thought i'd get mad and instantly stop liking you even after your apology, but that night i realized that i love you way too much when my instant thought after bawling my eyes out for hours was to tell you that i forgive you.

every song that summer was about u
watermelon, kiwi, cherry bomb
desire, feelings, butterflies
modernity, loneliness, lover
Regret runs like rivers
streams of ifs, ands, buts
all flow to your ocean

I don’t know if you still think about me, but I think about you. I’d get back in touch, but I don’t think you want me.

I dont know what i feel for you, but i miss you. I see the sky and and try to find you between the space.

you made me feel like shit every single day. i hope you’re happy now. i hope you’re happy knowing that no one is thinking of you at night in a good way.

i wish i could forget about you. i wish we had never met. i wish i had lost feelings early on and didn’t continue with you. the good memories aren’t even worth it. you caused me more pain than anyone else in my life has. you made me feel so unworthy, so useless, i always felt like i wasn’t enough. you made so many excuses. you know, you weren’t the only one who went to the mental hospital. you cant use that as an excuse whenever someone tries to confront you. don’t bring up the “ive almost killed myself” yeah, i get that you want to be selfish sometimes but it’s not fair when you do it every single fucking time that you fuck up. you are not the only one with mental problems. you are fucking crazy. i hope that in the future i will be able to never associate myself with you. i don’t want to be friends with you, i don’t want to be mutual with you, i don’t want to talk with you ever again. you fucked up my life so bad. i hope you feel guilty for everything you did. i hope that the guilt keeps you up at night. i hope you reach out to me only so i could reject you and tell you how i feel; tell you how i’m never going back and how i never want to talk to you again. i fucking hate that i gave you so many chances. i’m embarrassed honestly. someone like you shouldn’t be able to get that many chances. i wish i had put you in your place earlier on. oh if only you could feel the pain i felt. i know for a fact that you wouldn’t be okay if it was done to you. but, oh, when you do it, it’s fine and it was only because you’re bipolar. got it.

i still love you. and it hurts. why you, why not anyone else. you weren't right for me but you felt so right. but i realized that you made her feel the same way and thats when i knew that nothing was real. i didnt deserve this, why did you have to do this to me. i hate you but deep down i will always care for you. that's just how i am. i hate that i love you. i wish i could be your favorite person but i know i will never be that. fuck. you told me that you loved me. it wasnt just like a "love u" you told me you were in love with me. you said to me "i love you" you told me so many times. don't tell me that if you dont mean it. please. i will never feel the way i felt about you to anyone else. i dont think i can. i dont think i will be able to find the right person for a long time. i gave you my all. my life is so boring without you. i just want you back in it. you werent just right person wrong time. just wrong person.

i miss being able to just know that i could text you at any time. i miss being able to just know that you're still apart of my life.

Love Elixir still runs trough my veins how to cure myself?

i love you i hope we talk to each other more

it’s like it really never happened

You are the only person I want back and I'm sorry I was 17 and didn't know what I wanted

this is moon. if you see this. just follow the steps. im still here

You’ll always be the best I’ll ever have. Thank u

I can love you better this time if you just let me. Please just let me.

I think I can finally say I don't miss you anymore. Thank you for helping me get over you.

there’s a lot that i need to say but i don’t know where to start i’m so sorry

i still miss u everyday lol

i love you in a way that i was scared i’d never feel

I miss you, my moon.

It still hurts but i have nowhere to run to, pls take the pain away

Ill love you forever and always, Im terrified of our future

i'm sure you're tired of hearing me cry over him. we were special.

one of these days, I know that you might come back to me

I love you. I hope we find each other in the future.

Take me away, please, I love you

I've never sent one of these, but I just want you to know I still care, forever my love

loving you is bittersweet, only because i love you in such a way i know will never be reciprocated

You’ll never know how much I look up to you. I hope we can stay friends forever

you’re really hurting me all over again

if one day the moon calls you by your name, its because every night i tell her about you :)

I never know what to think about. I think about you.

I miss you, so friggin much. But I don’t know how to not with u, so I don’t add u. It kills me

How am i hurting you?

Id cross the ocean to watch the stars the moon is always out it reminds me of you

I guess our moonlight is slowly fading away. Maybe we loved each other and moved on.