i miss you. i know i shouldnt because you cheated on me and i cant forgive you for that. looking back, i was so unhappy, breaking up again and again and again just to get back together, the untolerable pain you brought me. but i cant help but feel like i cant be someone without you. you were my first love and the one that hurt the most. everytime our mutual friends talk about you i cant help but feel hopeless. i hate you i really do but i dont love you, i dont know how i feel, i miss being around you even when people judged us or when you would text me goomorning texts or goodnight texts. of course ive had many other boyfriends after you that were alot better than you. but i cant help feeling interested in what you do now. but for all the pain and embarrassment you caused me, fuck you.