why are you this toxic but i can’t leave you? do i love you i dont even know. you break me just so much that i don’t actually want to do anything, i have no motivation. you never liked me, you sometimes say im like a medicine to you and i make you so happy and i comfort you but you dont even want to say that im your best friend. i want to leave you because you dont give a fuck about the person that broke me the most in the world, the person who made me want to k1ll myself, youre best friends with them. i cant even begin to tell you how broken i am over this. you probably were my first love and i will always have this weakness for you but i wish u were a good best friend.