Unsent Messages

I know you love me and care for me in your own way, but I wish you understood the ways you hurt me more, even if it’s “not on purpose” or “ not your fault.” in the end am I really much better when I’m pushing you away more and more it seems like? I don’t want to, but I don’t know what to do about it anymore. I feel like it was inevitable that we would drift apart, it’s both of our faults in the end, but I do wish you put the effort in that you kept promising you would, after a long time of this I just feel the difference in the energy, the attachment I still have to you, but the passiveness and disinterest in my tone, I’m so short with you sometimes and distant, but only if you knew how I actually felt and think, I put on such a front. all the time. and this is my fault, but you also leave empty promises and things never changing, sometimes things you won’t admit or don’t think I notice. I know it’s hard for you too, but if it can’t change then what’ll happen, you know? in reality I’m sure you have no idea what the fuck this website is and youll never read this, but I kind of like that. I know I’ll have to bring another talk like this up again soon, and I hate it. Another case of getting the right connection at the wrong time.