Unsent Messages

you know how i dyed my hair two days ago? i think you would know since i said i needed a break to find myself before staying as your friend, but i look back and think about how you said "i just make everything worse, i told you." and to be honest, sometimes you do say things that i took out of context or were insensitive or just had a passive aggressive tone to it, but you never make anything worse. your approach was off all the time and i just assumed you didn't want me around anymore. i noticed things were off about 2-3 months ago when all we mostly did was fight because of my overthinking. a week or two before we broke up, i accepted who i was and believed that i needed to be better for the both of us, but i didn't realize that you had gotten tired. i don't blame you. most of it was my fault and i'm aware of that. i know you probably don't care but when i dyed my hair, i felt good about myself and still do. i feel confident and i'm happy to be who i am. i also realized that i'm not alone. i didn't have to depend on you like that. we hurt each other because i wasn't healed and you just weren't ready to love someone. we both needed to focus on each other and that's okay :DD we both have our flaws, and i'm glad we went our separate ways for a little while. i can't wait to see you again and tell you about how i wrote about you on here :pp you'll probably read them, or not. or maybe you'll make fun of me. but this is me pretending that i'm talking to you on the daily and telling you about things i'm proud of and hopefully you'll see some change too :'))) i really miss you. i love you!!! i'll talk later hehe