I pretend I dont care about anything and that nothing affects me but i do and it does a lot. i wait for it all to hit me at once at which point i cant bring myself to do much even text u (which is my favorite thing to do :) ) I guess what im getting at is im sorry im so distant sometimes. im just so so scared of making u hate me. i realize by doing this im pushing u away and im so fucking sorry i so badly wish i wasnt. please dont let me make u go i need u so much u make everything feel better. we talk so much less now but i still lighten up when i see ur username pop up.
