alec, it’s been so long since we’ve talked. which doesn’t surprise me because you’re not here anymore. when you were around you meant the absolute world to me, you still do mean the world to me. i miss you so much every single day. the smallest things remind me of you. it’s hard to keep going but i’m pushing through for you, i love you. and i miss you more than words can describe. i would do anything to go back in time and convince you to stay longer, but the past is in the past. and i will keep pushing, and keep fighting, just like you told me to.