Unsent Messages

the worst part of my day is coming on here and seeing posts that could be from you. yes, i check. mostly because when i’m sad, i snowball, and seeing posts like “toxic” and “biggest hypocrite” really feed into that. but no, i don’t send you things in hopes of communication here. this is my first and last post to you here after all of this. i’ve clearly been sitting on this for a while. i obviously don’t know what’s written from you, but i can make a few guesses. i didn’t just up and leave just because. i hit a low point and somehow you made it about yourself. pointing blame at me. and at the point i was at? that was the final straw. i don’t need to look inward about anything further bc it all boiled down to that. within a single hour i got a text saying “hey can you at least react to a message so i know you’re okay” and “you could at least message me back so i don’t have to go through your other friends” or whatever it was. being that i hadn’t been answering anybody, it showed me who actually was a friend to me. who actually cared about my well-being. that is the sole reason. there’s nothing deeper to look into. i am not interested in some back and forth discourse because i made peace with my decision already. i just hope this gives you some clarity, as the posts on here make me think otherwise (though, again, might not even be from you but i feel like after all that has happened i could at least tell your words apart from others). i won’t be checking this website anymore.