Unsent Messages

idk what love is but all i know is that i’m scared of it. i think i love him? but i don’t know. last night i wanted to tell him that i’m in love with everything about him but i wasn’t sure if that meant that i had fallen for him. he told me last night that one day, he’s going to give me his last name. one day he’s going to visit me but at the end of it i told him “no promises” bc i don’t know if we’ll last or not. i’m head over heels for him but idk what to think. so much happened last night and idk if i feel guilty or... actually fuck that. i wanna do all these things with him. i wanna see the world w him. i told him i wanted him to be my first everything and he said he would love that. i don’t know what’s going on but i can’t get enough of him. i wanna grow old w him and maybe it’s too soon to say but in this moment, all i want right now, is him.