Unsent Messages

writing again bcs i had no clue i could write more than like 2 sentences? anyways i don’t know if you’re reading this in the time i want you to , or if you’re not even reading this at all, but lyndon i really miss you. i’m not expecting you to come back because i’m pretty sure you grew out of me. i hope everything is good for you now. i hope you’re getting the treatment you deserve now. i think you know who’s writing this , so doing this on an anonymous website is pointless. the thing is , i’m too scared to talk to you. i’m too scared to wish you a merry christmas. i’m too scared to ask for forgiveness. shit dude you were like , my whole 2020. you’re the only memorable thing from this year, isn’t that kinda crazy? so much bad shit happened this year , and you’re the only thing i can remember. i hoped we could spend christmas together, maybe even my birthday, but i don’t think that’s gonna happen. i’m sorry for being a dick sometimes. i’m sorry for lashing out on you when you were trying to let me off easy. i’m sorry for treating you horribly when i knew things weren’t great for you at the time. i hope you’re doing better. your youtube seems to be growing, i’m proud of you. i don’t think i’ll ever message you unless you come to me, i’m too much of a pussy to do that. even though i don’t wanna tell you this, i secretly hope you find this sometime during 2021, because i’ll be happy to be friends with you again, no toxicity this time, i promise.