Unsent messages to LYNDON

You probably think I don't like you but I was just too shy to tell you I had a crush on you

Im the happiest and luckiest girl alive because of you, thank you.

I love you so much. I regret what I did. Come back to me whenever you want to and I’ll come back too

i wish i didn’t laugh as much as i do with you

please stop confusing me. you can’t say you’re falling then ignore me …

I miss your goodmorning texts.U made me feel so warm.I deleted you, but you can always msg me okay.

i love how stupid we are

December 18 is getting close. I refuse to break no contact but I wouldn’t be upset if you did. -J ????

I wish you only wanted me

I loved you, I still love you, just wish you could say the same.
I'm done third wheeling

what if i sent that birthday message would u care?

if only u made things clear

Was it worth it? You called it love, but it was poison..

I can’t ask you to wait for me though I wish I could. Thank you for saving me. I love you.

I love you, I'll always love you and that was a promise. even if we aren't together.

i still think of you, i do and always.

I loved you, and of course I still do. maybe I'll love you forever?

The fucking manipulative jokers.. In a perfect world we’d be far away right now from any sick minded people, babe. Tell me you're coming home soon.

been missing you more lately, don’t know why. i want you back. i loved talking to you. i loved being there for you. i loved that you relied on me. i loved that i could tell you anything and not have to worry about you actually making a fuss about it. i loved you, and tbh i still kind of do.

writing again bcs i had no clue i could write more than like 2 sentences? anyways i don’t know if you’re reading this in the time i want you to , or if you’re not even reading this at all, but lyndon i really miss you. i’m not expecting you to come back because i’m pretty sure you grew out of me. i hope everything is good for you now. i hope you’re getting the treatment you deserve now. i think you know who’s writing this , so doing this on an anonymous website is pointless. the thing is , i’m too scared to talk to you. i’m too scared to wish you a merry christmas. i’m too scared to ask for forgiveness. shit dude you were like , my whole 2020. you’re the only memorable thing from this year, isn’t that kinda crazy? so much bad shit happened this year , and you’re the only thing i can remember. i hoped we could spend christmas together, maybe even my birthday, but i don’t think that’s gonna happen. i’m sorry for being a dick sometimes. i’m sorry for lashing out on you when you were trying to let me off easy. i’m sorry for treating you horribly when i knew things weren’t great for you at the time. i hope you’re doing better. your youtube seems to be growing, i’m proud of you. i don’t think i’ll ever message you unless you come to me, i’m too much of a pussy to do that. even though i don’t wanna tell you this, i secretly hope you find this sometime during 2021, because i’ll be happy to be friends with you again, no toxicity this time, i promise.

honestly , i’d do anything to get you back. waiting for you is torture. i love you. please contact me. i’m falling apart.