Unsent Messages

i have to fucking rewrite this an omfg okay do if youre lying to me and you did wrote those messages then read this and if you didnt write them then you can still read this but it might hurt.

I'm sorry that i can't give you what you want but can we please just stay friends? I think we were meant to meet each other but not to be more than friends. I'm sorry for only giving 5 percent when you gave me 500. and I'm sorry for basking in the attention you gave me. it was just so foreign to me. i can't do the reading between the lines. if you're as mad as you seemed in those letters then im sorry, i'm sorry i didn't realize how bad i was hurting you before i did damage. I'm sorry if i talked about eva too much but i just miss her and i can't have her back because i ruined that relationship. I'm a ruiner. and I know that sounds cheesy and I don't wanna be cheesy on the main but it's true. Whenever I have anything good, I mess it up. and i'm sorry i ruined this and i'm sorry that you're mad at me. Thank you for listening to me when I only talked about myself. I'm sorry that I couldn't give you better advice or offer more sympathy when you were going through things, and I'm really sorry if I made things worse for you. I wasn't trying. I just didnt wanna have to deal with the fact that I couldn't give you my all so I pushed it away or instigated it to the point where I had to back out. You can talk to other girls if you want an idgaf. if it hurts too much then you can leave if it makes you happy. i'm proud of you for being sober for so long. I know you worked hard for that. I'm sorry for hurting you