Unsent Messages

i’m not even surprised you blocked me, i even told you it was going to happen. that you would disappear again, like every other time. it’s crazy how i’m not even hurt by it anymore, at this point, i’m used to it. did she find out?...did she make you do it? or was it your conscience? i don’t understand how after that night, after you told me you loved me, you would just push me aside again. as if i meant nothing to you. maybe you’re still confused ab everything, ab her, ab me. but there’s something ab all this that i just can’t let go. i think ab you every single day, but it’s almost like this numb feeling. when i saw you that night, it felt like no time had passed. like it hadn’t been 7 months since the last time i had seen you. idk if you felt that way too, but i think that’s why i feel this numbness inside. because ik you’re going to reach out again, or come back. i don’t have to worry and wait, because ik it’ll happen sooner or later. and ik you feel guilty ab what happened that night, but there’s nothing you can do ab it. maybe it was for the best, because if you actually loved her, you wouldn’t have done that. let alone w me. if only she knew...