normally this is the color i feel when i think about you but you lead me on all the time you make me think i'm special you make me think i'm something i never want to hurt you i would never say this to you because it would break you and that would break me but you hurt me so much. i want to grow. i want to get into things. you hold me back but you act like i'm growing. i'm tired. i'm exhausted. i'm something to you but also nothing. i've invested my everything into you. i hurt so much. i want to grow away but it would break me. i'm so lost.