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I had thought that I had found the one and that was you, you stopped hanging out with me, stopped talking to me, but started talking to her starting hanging out with her. I used to watch you out of my window. You and her laughing, chasing each other. The way you looked at her, you never looked at me that way. You would find ways to say you've gotta go home. You hurt me. And you started dating her after I moved. Do you know how that made me feel no you don't. You can tell all of our friends that I was the one who stopped but we both know it was you. God what am I even doing. I never told anyone this but I hate you and I hate your guts you where the first boy I ever told that I loved them and meant it. You had gotten all of our friends to hate me. How could you do this to me. You where jus a bump in the road to my future husband. Right now you mean nothing to me. How could you look at her the way you never did to me. Your my fist cheek kiss, my first hug, my first holding of hands. And when I was with you I was happy, until that day when I was out, you came out then went back in. I sat on the grass for an hour, we had no way of talking or communicating. You talked to her more than you talked to me. How could you.