Unsent Messages

this isn't really love as in a relationship way but deeper we were just friends and never more it was never gonna be us and we both new it absolutely no one knew about what either of us was going threw nobody but each other you helped me through the darkest times in my life all i would need is one notification i would hope your name would pop up every time

we would stay up all night texting, often pulling all nighter's we knew each other since the beginning of primary but only noticed each other this year

you didn't know this but you were the only one i could trust and you still are the only person i told about my life we promised each other not to tell anyone and we would spill secrets and old memories threw the screen you made the lowest point in my life one of the best years ever

even though i told you about my life i never got to know about yours, i would always ask but you changed the subject if only i would have noticed sooner that you skipped meals everyday that you wore jumpers and hoodies all through summer,how i was too caught up in my life to notice how bad yours was, you changed my life for the better and i was just annoying to you i was the one building up on your problems you were trying too be good enough for me without knowing you were perfect to me in every single way i regret not checking in on you more and i promise you i am trying for you and you only so please just try for me,your fading away,your not the joseph i know

i just want to say i love you more than anything,thank you,and please don't leave me we need each other