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Even though this isn’t really a first love I do have a lot to say to you. Why would you even lead me on? I literally told you how I got hurt, did everything to keep you happy and I still got nothing in return. When we where “ dating” I was happy, I didn’t even know who what’s his face was, i was in love with you. Then days came closer to the day you where leaving. I had a horrible gut feeling that’s i knew what was going to happen. Then it turned out it did, you broke me... I had to move on then I did but I fell right back to the hole. We talked and talked and i felt some connection again and maybe think it was going to work out... till I found out you had a girl in a different country all along. I confort you and i was shocked but I still talked to you and tried to convince myself we where friends. till it kept growing. We did things but it came to a point where it felt like you where using me. I started going to a bad place because of you but you thought it was because of someone else, which I made you think. Today you left and it made my heart shatter to know you will be forgetting about me and fall in love with who you are really in love. I hope she treats you better than I could of done. I just wasn’t good enough for you and I’m sorry. You say you will talk to me and will not forgot me but I know that isn’t the case. I trust you but at the same time I don’t. I will always love you. thank you for always being there for me. You want someone else and need to accept that and move on with my life and stunt on you. I hope you won’t forget who I am .