From: ABC
To: Kathleen
Date: November 23, 2020, 2:19 am
♪”umaasa - calein♪
I want you here with me right now. Is that too insistent for me to say? It sounds like it, doesn’t it? But I won’t take it back. That would be lying and lying to your significant other is not very wise is it.
There are just some much harder days where I’m gonna miss you more than usual. And when I do, I always regret the little stupid things. Like maybe I should’ve held you longer in my arms. I should’ve kissed you longer. I should’ve said “I love you” more. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. And the void gets bigger and I become sadder so I have to bury my face into your sweater to calm myself. You have no idea how much that basic clump of fiber could comfort a person. It’s so stupid ahahha.
I know I can’t always throw myself into your arms when I feel like falling apart. And that sucks. Maybe because you’re the only comfort I know. Everything about you is so peculiar, but familiar. I could completely fall asleep peacefully next to you.
Call it stupid teen romance all you want, but I’ll never get tired of your touch. I still get butterflies when we kiss. There is still this heavy feeling in my chest when you hold me. And ugh sex. Some just do it for sexual pleasures or whatever, but it’s stupid how much more it means to me. Heh I can’t even look at you properly when we do it because I get all shy that you’ll see my flustered face. It’s not only because it feels good. It’s more of the meaning behind it. Giving you my consent and body is just another form of me showing that I trust you and love you. I love you.
You have such a different warmth. I could lose myself into you. I wanna tell you that someday. I’ve never even gotta tell you how appealing you looked next to me when we were laying down watching the stars in that playground. I’ve never got to tell you how comforting your hand felt in mine. I’ve never got to really tell you that much…
How honestly strange it is for someone like me to drop everything just to be with you. Ugh love really is cliche.
I can’t wait to see you again baby. I love you. I love you. I love you.