Unsent Messages

was it the right person just the wrong time?
i get lost in these messages at 3 am overthinking each word sometimes.
i was insecure and practically at my worst right before we broke up. i’d love to fully explain but that would be a lot longer to write and that’s not really the point of this.
i’ve figured out who i am. i finally dyed my hair purple, i got more (and more) piercings, i wear makeup, and i finally dress more towards how i wished i could; i even wear my hair natural now. i finally got my weight back up; which is something i don’t think you knew i was fighting when we broke up. that summer id dropped from 110 to around 92 pounds and fought to bring it back above 100, i was terrified of losing more weight.
i don’t know if it was quarantine, or if it would have happened anyways, but i finally am who i am supposed to be; i still struggle to get through each day sometimes, but i am in a completely different place then when i knew you.
i was insecure and jealous of your friends when we were dating because they looked how i wished i could.
i don’t feel like that anymore.
im trying to keep this short, but neither of us really got full closure.
im sorry and i hope you live a great life.
+ did you see saturn and jupiter the other day? the planets are beautiful.