Unsent Messages

i wouldn’t say you were my first love considering we didn’t even reach the dating stage but you made me feel this way i can’t put into words. our dates were so perfect, you are so perfect. you told me you liked me, led me on, but then ended things and got with someone else less than a month after? yet i still see you as perfect. i wish you felt the same as i do. i’m so attached to you and i can’t let go. you were everything i could dream of and you threw us away. why am i not good enough for you? i’m in so much pain and you act like i’m a nobody after everything. we don’t even talk anymore. i just wanted to be loved by you. i was so naive to think you actually cared about me because you clearly didn’t. why did you waste both of our times just to move on almost immediately? i sometimes wish nothing had happened to save myself this pain. you’re a stranger now. what is the point in love if it turns out like this? i’m mentally drained from you. it hurts my heart writing this but feels better at the same time. i wish you were mine J, but i wish you the world always.