Unsent Messages

i loved you, with all my heart. i would've done anything for you, but you knew that. you knew what you were doing hurt me, you knew i didn't want to do all of those things you pressured me into, you know i'd forgive you everytime you came back. you knew i was too inlove with you to let go. and after everything you've done i still don't hate you. and that's the thing that really bothers me. i blamed myself for all of the arguments even though you were the one starting them. i hated myself for not being good enough when you're the one that didn't see my worth. i hated myself for running away when you were the one chasing me. i miss it, you, your hair, your smile, your laugh, your jokes, us. i miss the times before you cheated, before you lied to me, before there were any other girls. i listened to all of the things you told me even though they were lies. i took your promises even though you broke them. the worst part about it all is i do not hate you for any of it. i defend all of your actions, back up all of your lies, i hold on to all of your promises. and for some reason i still have hope, hope that all the promises you made about our ''together forever'' you'll actually follow through with. i love you, come back. please. you pinky promised man, you can't tell me all of us meant nothing to you.
- ''your everything''