Unsent Messages

love is such a complicated thing. it's probably the happiest yet saddest thing i believe a person could ever experience. you develop such feelings for a person, some which become obsessive in circumstances. you feel the need to be the best for a person who should love you no matter what. you could be deathly in love with someone and then they don't even take a second look at you. you could be so deathly in love with someone and believe with your whole heart they feel the same, until one day they break you leaving you alone, helpless, vulnerable and carry on like nothing ever happened.
Manipulation. love basically lives hand in hand with manipulation, mental, emotional, physical. twisted people have a twisted way of making this beautiful feeling fit them and benefit them in a way which could turn another person's world upside down.
i don't believe i've experienced love, something once felt like it however i believe it was all a foreign feeling. this may sound selfish but i don't ever think a feeling where i would put my life for someone else. it's an experience i am yet to embark in.
Arguments. Happiness. Love presents itself as all of the different emotions fighting each other, like the blind couples who believe love conquers the world. yes it makes you stronger but it also makes you the weakest you'll ever be in your life having all your barrier down, being fully exposed, so much opportunity for heartbreak, having to trust a person with your life and having no ill intentions.
i believe society makes it worse. society doesn't help by applying pressure and shoving expectations down people's throats, it only causes people to feel bad abt themselves and causes them to question everything and everyone in their lives. people would rather date someone they know will break their heart over the nice guys, girls and others because they fear what others say.
but in the end, overall, love makes a person happy. it makes people who once felt dead find their colour and helps people improve.
yes, ofc, i would love to experience love. the idea completely terrifies me. it scared me half to death and often makes me hold myself back. but yes, overall, i believe love is worth the risk. i believe love, no matter the consequences, is the best thing to ever happen to a person.