Unsent Messages

we never spoke, we had different friendship groups and we never crossed paths, we had mutual friends who you had lessons with however we never became friends until recently and now after being friends for a while i don't think i could ever tell you how i feel. i've been told to stay away from you from all of my friends because well.. people have said things. but idc things happen, the past is the past. when i talk to you i feel like i'm breathing fresh air, like you saved me from drowning and i can't thank you enough. i felt so bad about myself before we became friends and now you've made me feel better about myself and honestly i feel so much happier.
you did something which caused me to lose trust in you. and then when i asked you abt it you lied. you lied to me. i let it go but i always feel like that memory is engraved in the back of my mind. but i can't stop being friends with you. you mean to much to me. honestly, i don't mind you big dummy.. i rlly like you and i don't think i will ever overcome my fear to tell you.
thank you for everything joe. thank you from being my friend and allowing me to talk and have no fear of judgment.