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i couldn’t sleep last night. while i was thinking about everything my mind always wanders to you. even when i’m doing the simplest things like cooking,cleaning,schoolwork,or just laying in bed. my mind always wanders off to you. “ did she eat?” “i hope she drank water.” “ how is she right now?” it always you. it’s always been you. i don’t care about anyone or anything else til i had you. There’s this question, “ when did you know you wanted to spend the rest of your life with them?” well, thats pretty easy on my part. it’s when we saw for the first time again after we broke up. seeing you smile again made me think you were happy without me. and sure that broke my heart into a thousand pieces but i didn’t care. i cared that you were happy. because i thought i was the thing that held you back. and i know if i let you go i could love you from afar. and not hurt you as much as i thought i did. that’s when i knew i wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. whether it would’ve been together as friends or more. and thank god it was more.