Jackson, you were the first one who wanted me for me. Not my body or anything other than my personality. You wanted me to be myself. You were the one who showed me what love felt like. I think I loved you but I don't know for sure. I regret not sending that text to you a day before, a week before, hell even a month before. I'm sorry I did that to you, I'm sorry I gave up on you. On us. I missed my chance on what may have been the best thing that has happened in my life. I did everything to get me and you off my mind. Didn't work, I even made a playlist for you. You're my best friend. I know we've drifted but you are the one person I can trust who I know will listen to me. You're happy now, with her. And I'm happy for you. I may be jealous sometimes, jealous of her for getting to have you all to herself but my life is fulfilled knowing you're happy. I still listen to our song and smile every time. I still dream about you. I still think about you Jackson and I don't know if it's gonna last forever. I want you, but I don't want to ake you from anyone. I just want to apologize for getting scared, for commitment issues coming between us. I'm sorry for not texting you. I'm sorry for letting you go, but you're happy. And that makes me happy. Goodbye Jackson, I'm going to miss you with everything in my heart. Thank you, thank you for everything.